Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Lee lee 73]

Hello Grandy and demonblaster,

Demonblaster, your words are so heart warming.

Grandy, demonblasters words are so heart warming because they are sooooooooooooooo true - oh my goodness they are so true ❤💜.

This world would be a better place if there were more people like you beautiful Grandy 🤗🤗🤗😊😊😘.

Lee xx

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Lee and all,

Lee...Thank you very much for saying what you did...Deebi she has such a uniquely beautiful, caring and loving soul...You also lovely Lee have a beautiful soul and I appreciate you both so much...

Deebi...I keep walking away from conflict, I agree with people even if I know they are wrong....I’m scared to face up to people...How can I be strong and courageous when I’m so scared of people and life?.....Rhetorical only...

My mhn, wants to see me again on Tuesday...She wants me to keep seeing this Psych in town...now..I wonder what’s changed her mind...

Deebi, your posts are so soul lifting and you alway seem to know when I need a lift...😢..My deep thanks, gratitude and respect beautiful friend.. .☺️..

We sure did have every drop..😂 ummm it was soooo yummy..

Deebi, my heart’s breaking with your pain...I’m truely very sorry, I remember last time, and it hasn’t been that long since it went good.....Please! .....take very good care of yourself, rest your back..please!...

Ill hold on to you Deebi, I’ll never let you go...

🤝...super glued..

👀....glued open to watch you..😳..

👂.....I have huge ears..listening out for you...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩.....your first gift to me...friendship is beautiful...

💜.....Love you very much....

🦄..your magical..

🦄&👼....in it together....

🕊🕊......one day we will all have peace....

Have a good sleep Deebi, as many hours as you can, here for you....Love and cuddles...💜🤗🤗🤗..lovely lady...

Sending big love to everyone with big hugs..💜💜🤗🤗..and wishing everyone peace..🕊🕊..and a nice day...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy👼🦄....xxxx

[demonblaster]

Hey sweety and everyone ☺

Lee thank you darl she's so easy to love isn't she.

Grandy thank you for your warm heart felt post 🤗

Good. glad you'll be seeing your psych don't like you being empty with support sweets

😆umm...so glad you drank every drop, to be fair your potion was easier on the taste buds mind you must say had a woody taste 😂 you crack me up

Dropping in to thank you for your dedication and excellent ongoing care ⛑ dear kind loving friend. Quality. You really do make me feel cared for even if you do feed me hot chillies and walking sticks 😅 class act

🦄👼unbeatable team, Grandy we're going to get there. You're better at research than me but lately I've done some 🤤 and today about c-ptsd from Sez's thread anamolous found some info helpful, was 🤤 good too.

🕊🕊 absolutely. Oh oh have you been wearing your 💑 on your slipper (just love that cute like you are).

You asked about my MH which would be better if I had more than a doze today these meds and pain knock ya silly 🙃 apart from that going well thanks. Had 3 ph yaks & friend today and some texting. Missing walking but not game.

What about you sweety lady how are you going. How's your jaw bursitis bruising and MH. Hope you've been managing your veranda and enjoying your pretty parrots Mumjo and our stars. How I wish we could cuddle up 🤝 under our 12.7 min blankys and watch them but love our virtual gazing and time.

You're an amazing friend love you deeply dear Grandy floss. Please take care of yourself. Oh how'd the pumpkin soup go?

Leaving on your bedside table the most glorious 🌹 when you touch the stem a 🦄 puff of lavender vapour with special sweet dream potion fills the room and when you return it to the 🐚 vase a calming melody of soft wind chimes can be heard.

🕊 to you. Love and appreciation beautiful friend 🤗😚 always

Nigh nite lovey ☺ and everyone

[Guest8901]

Grandy darlin' RUOK? Just read something from you elsewhere which makes me think that perhaps you're not. 💕

Friendly waves to Deebi, Pepper and Lee Lee. 🙋

Amanda

[Ggrand]

No....,I Just got home from hospital. I have had enough..

[Birdy77]

Dear gentle Grandy,

We are here for you.

I am so sad to hear you hurting so badly.

Please allow us to sit with you and send you love and light.

You can talk as much or as little as you like.

Thank you Amanda for alerting others of us to our dear Grandy's pain.

We all love and care for you Grandy.

🌻birdy

[Guest8901]

My dear loving friend Grandy. I am so sorry to hear. Is there anything you need right now? Anything I can do or say? Your MHN was to see you tomorrow I believe. Would you like to talk about what's happened to have sent you to hospital? Are you okay physically? I can tell you're in a bad way emotionally. Oh how I wish I could help you Grandy, as you have helped me and others so often. Please Grandy, do not take any risks ... promise me you'll call one of your trusted help lines if you need some help. 💜🤗

Amanda xx

[demonblaster]

Hey sweetheart you're not ok

Honey I know I shouldn't push but darlin you've been to hospital... what happened? Worried about you.

We talk to eachother but too often it's you listening to me. I'm here for you dear friend and so are your other beautiful friends we care so much and love you Grandy

Are you up to talking about it.

I'll keep checking in darling.

Love you floss. Please be ok.

💑💜🤗

[demonblaster]

Or lovey remember our emoji code so we can get more of an idea where you're at if you cant talk atm.

Obviously your not in a good way. I'm at yours.

Darlin

[Ggrand]

Deebi, Amanda, Birdy...

Thank you...

Just can’t atm..Sorry...

im going to bed...

😭....