I miss you

[Jackson1994]

I keep being bought back to that day and it won’t leave my head I sat next to him, I put his hair behind his ears and touched his head and i told him it will be ok i wanted to believe it so badly i didn’t leave his side until I knew he wasn’t alone it’s so vivid still i can see the pictures i put on the wall pictures of me and Mum and him and pictures of us with nanna, and pictures of us when we went on our first holiday with our step dad I wanted to hug him so much and and i couldn’t i told him how sorry i was that this happened him my step sister bought him a melbourne demons beanie kid and we put in his hand now i sleep with it every night

[Tess2]

Hi Jackson,

i have been following your posts, but not posted back to you before. I am glad that you have supportive people in your life. Grief is such a lonely thing and it can always be present to some degree

you seem like a lovely person and deserving of happiness. I wish I could say something to comfort you.

Tess

[Jackson1994]

Thanks both of you

yeah I’m ok, what happened was I was getting my wrist looked at before training and it was just casual conversation and they asked how my weekend was and after holding in these feelings for so long I just couldn’t help it and I told him everything, poor bloke was not expecting that

[Jackson1994]

I’m watching something on tv I wish I hadn’t seen

I’m so upset

[Doolhof]

Hi Jackson,

Some things can be triggering. Do you have a way of coping when that happens to you?

Are you planning to see the Dr and have a chat?

How can we help you Jackson?

[Jackson1994]

Hannah keeps bothering me about booking in I haven’t yet

[Doolhof]

Hi Jackson,

Hannah is no doubt concerned for you.

Do you have any plans for today Jackson? Are you working?

Can you catch up with someone from the footy club for a chat?

Wish I had the words for you Jackson!

Regards from Dools

[Jackson1994]

Yeh got stuff on for footy and work

[Doolhof]

Hey Jackson,

It does help to keep busy. Those thoughts and memories can come slipping in during the quiet moments though can't they.

Are you able to say something to yourself that might help when the memories start to over take you Jackson?

Maybe some deep breathes, breathing in a sense of peace, letting out some of the pain. It helped me a little.

[Jackson1994]

Im not sure

the support people from the club are pretty keen to have a chat to me I think

I’m not

[Doolhof]

Do you find it hard to share what you are going through verbally Jackson?

I know when my grief was intense I didn't really understand it myself. I wanted people to help but didn't know how they could!

Okay, so you are not keen right now, please remember that option is available to you.

Maybe you could see one of them, let them know you are struggling and just want to talk footy, would that help?