I miss you

[Jackson1994]

I keep being bought back to that day and it won’t leave my head I sat next to him, I put his hair behind his ears and touched his head and i told him it will be ok i wanted to believe it so badly i didn’t leave his side until I knew he wasn’t alone it’s so vivid still i can see the pictures i put on the wall pictures of me and Mum and him and pictures of us with nanna, and pictures of us when we went on our first holiday with our step dad I wanted to hug him so much and and i couldn’t i told him how sorry i was that this happened him my step sister bought him a melbourne demons beanie kid and we put in his hand now i sleep with it every night

[Jackson1994]

Yeah not a bad idea

[Jackson1994]

Just don’t want my issues to affect where I sit in the team and all that kind of thing

[Doolhof]

Hey Jackson,

They would have to be a very misunderstanding group of people if they kicked someone off the team or demoted them due to how they were coping with life and grief!

The fact these people are there for you seems to me that they care!

I'd like to think a person would have to do something really horrible to be kicked off a team or disadvantaged in some way.

Jackson, sorry mate, I need to switch over to study mode!

Please know my thoughts are with you Jackson! Virtual hugs to you if you want them.

Cheers from Dools

[Jackson1994]

Yeah they spoke to me

It felt very pressuring even though they didn’t mean it

[startingnew]

Hi Jackson,

im sorry it felt pressuring. is there anything you could do tonight to help yourself feel abit better and/or less distressed?

[Jackson1994]

Yeah startingnew H is home tonight

[Doolhof]

Hi Jackson,

Hope you have some plans for the weekend. Do you have to work? Are you playing footy?

Do you have some favourite music that helps you when you are feeling down?

Have you tried writing out how you are feeling until you have no words left? I find that helps me. The tears that may come are healing too.

Once again my words seem inadequate. Thinking of you Jackson, from Dools

[Jackson1994]

I have done a bad thing

[CMF]

Hey,

just saw this thread, haven't been around much, needing time to myself.

whats happened?

[Jackson1994]

I’m ok just made a not so good choice and I wish I hadn’t done that because it will definitely upset someone close to me