I miss you

[Jackson1994]

I keep being bought back to that day and it won’t leave my head I sat next to him, I put his hair behind his ears and touched his head and i told him it will be ok i wanted to believe it so badly i didn’t leave his side until I knew he wasn’t alone it’s so vivid still i can see the pictures i put on the wall pictures of me and Mum and him and pictures of us with nanna, and pictures of us when we went on our first holiday with our step dad I wanted to hug him so much and and i couldn’t i told him how sorry i was that this happened him my step sister bought him a melbourne demons beanie kid and we put in his hand now i sleep with it every night

[Doolhof]

Hi Jackson,

Revisiting places can be bittersweet at times. It is lovely to have the happy memories, while the pain can feel overwhelming at times.

If you phone the Beyond Blue helpline, 1300 22 4636 they may be able to put you in touch with someone you can talk with or a place where you can get help.

If you don't mind me asking, have you been to see a person who deals specifically in grief counselling? One guy really helped me. I also read books on dealing with grief.

It doesn't mean in any way that you forget Tyler, dealing with the grief just makes it easier to cope.

In the past I think I hung onto the pain of the grief as it made my memory feel stronger for the loved ones I no longer had with me. My memories and my love can still be strong and meaningful without all the pain.

Jackson, have you thought further about reaching out to the footy team?

Dools

[Jackson1994]

Yeah footy club know now

[Jackson1994]

i didn’t mean to tell them

[Jackson1994]

Han wants me to go to the doctor

[Doolhof]

Hi Jackson,

Hans may be right, going to the Dr is a good idea.

[startingnew]

Hi Jackson

I think Han is right too, i dont think some extra supports esp professional ones would go astray

[Jackson1994]

I was trying so hard to hold it all in and it got the better of me

[startingnew]

hi Jackson

sometimes holding it in can be worse than telling someone

what do you mean 'it got the better of me' are you safe?

[Jackson1994]

Yeah safe

kind of lost it a little though

[startingnew]

Hi Jackson

how are you today?