Hi Maggie,
I am so sorry to hear you are feeling so lonely and homesick. I cannot imagine how difficult the past year has been for you, the uncertainty of it all, not having your family close by (especially in those first few months after the birth), and feeling that your friends do not really contact you much. It would be so hard, I can understand that you would be heartbroken. Not having that level of support around you when you have a child, particularly your first, would be so difficult.
I hope this isn't a silly question... but do you talk much with your husband about what you have been feeling? Maybe he cannot relate in the same way, and it obviously doesn't resolve the situation but sometimes it can help lighten the load even just a little to talk to someone who can relate and share experiences. Do you know any fellow UK expats who may be struggling with similar things? In relation to homesickness, creating routines, keeping busy, keeping in contact with your loved ones, planning things that you enjoy can all help a little. Do you know any other mother's groups that you could join or community groups e.g. if libraries/community centres are open where you are might it be an option to go to activities there with your daughter to try to meet other mums? I know this is so much easier said than done, but maybe this gives you some ideas.
I am sorry I am not much help, but hopefully others may be able to share more insight and advice. Does the vaccine give you any hope that things might change?
Please know that these forums are always here for you to chat as and when you feel up to it, we are here to listen.
Give yourself the time and space you need to let yourself feel whatever you are feeling, you have had to go through a lot with what sounds like not a lot of support. Take care and be kind to yourself.
