Hi I just want to say you’re not alone I feel exactly the way you do in this. I find the sunshine is a mood booster and I feel some little hope, but as soon as the cloud and darkness of night approaches I feel almost bipolar, which I haven’t been diagnosed with, but my mood drops 10 fold and it’s debilitating. These winter months are extremely hard, it feels almost tortures going through winter. I have major depressive disorder and CPTSD with ADHD and am on several medications they haven’t been very effective. You’re not alone on this, I definitely empathise with you and feel exactly this way as well, especially with not being able to enjoy anything, have a look at “Anhedonia”, this is a classic symptom of that. I have this as well, normal things which should or used to
make me happy don’t anymore, my favourite music I’d get the hairs stand up on my neck when my favourite part of the song would start playing and a rush of dopamine, I haven’t felt that for nearly 6 years, food, a lot of the time even nice weather doesn’t do it for me anymore except take me out of the major depressive spiral of night time. It almost feels like being “frozen”.
wishing you the very best and well done for reaching out, that takes courage! You’re on your way to being happier already!
