I think im at my lowest

[Sammy567]

I think with everything going on in my life im beginning to realise my sadness and anxiety has turned into depression, i feel like in the past year i have completley lost myself, i have little to no interest in anything, i have no motivation what so ever and im finding it seriously difficult to get the initiative to actively find a new job, every night now i think about my my life and how i pretty much dont have one, i dont do anything anymore, i dont see my friends much anymore, i dont laugh much anymore and its like i dont even know what i like, my dad knows that im depressed, even my sisters psychic says im in a "dark place", people are starting to realise it and its affecting my life so much that i really do not know what to do!?

[geoff]

hi Sammy, I know exactly how you feel and totally understand where you are at the moment as it reminds me so much when I was in that same position, I don't think I could ever forget it, but thankfully I'm in a good spot now and I hope that's where we can direct you.
When you have anxiety then depression is not far away, and what it does is exactly what you have mentioned and although you want to find a new job this may not be enough to overcome this feeling and could well and truly make it impossible for you to stay employed in it, and I say this simply because your depression hasn't been tackled with and until this can happen it's going to be a difficult road ahead for you.
Never feel afraid to have a laugh because depressed people can do this, I used to when I was with some friends/family and because you do laugh doesn't mean that it's all gone away, so don't worry if that's what you want to do.
From you are telling us you might not need to do the K-10 test, but you can if you want to, then I would be asking your dad to book an appointment with your GP, this will start to get the ball rolling and it's definitely what needs to happen.
They may prescribe medication and then refer you to a psychologist, but you have to feel comfortable with them otherwise you won't want to open up and talk about your real problems because that's so important.
Please let us know what you think and always happy to hear from you. Geoff.

[Neil_1]

Hi Sammy,

Welcome to Beyond Blue and thank you for providing your post.

Great to see Geoff has already responded to you.

Job searching can be a tough process, but am I reading right that you are either still in a job at the moment, or were in one?

Emotions can be a rollercoaster effect – where you hit highs and lows and so if you feel you need to cry, then go with it. Likewise, if something does make you happy, laughable happy, then also go for it.

As Geoff mentioned, do you think that your Dad would be a good support to offer you assistance with say a trip to the GP, to get that initial appointment?

The other thing I wanted to just touch on is the thing about having “likes” or “interests” and how you say I don’t even know what I like. Sports, hobbies, movies, music, outdoor activities, board games, computer games, anything like that? And goal setting – set little goals for yourself, to help get through each day and evening, like getting out for perhaps a walk, or maybe going somewhere for a coffee at another time? Just little things.

Neil

[demonblaster]

Hey Sammy welcome and good on you coming here to talk, lot as you can see support and good input.

The guys above have covered a lot so I really can't add too much, I think Geoff may have hit on something, that until you're able to get the depression under control having a job could add a lot more stress & holding can be difficult.

Jeez I can relate so much to what you're saying, it's awful isn't it, the motivation, not having a life, etc.

I'm working on it too and a lot here say by pushing through which actually gives a good sense of achievement is something that takes work but does help and feels like a small but vital win in getting back on top.
Can you think of stuff that you enjoyed doing before the depression got you or what you think you would get pleasure out of.

Goals is a good incentive to pull out and work towards, I too am trying to put in place, not easy but if we don't we have nothing to work towards and the beast continues to keep us tied down.

Do you know any specific reasons you're so low, that can help by then being able to work out strategies to help.

GP is a good starting place & good idea as above if maybe your Dad goes with you.

We're here for you for whenever you feel you want to talk it all through.

All best hun