Dear New Member~
I'd like to join Sophie_M in welcoming you here to the Forum. I'm glad you came as you sounded al alone with no clear path ahead.
Sophie gave good advice in suggesting the Kids Help Line, which is a pretty good place to go, they have people who can assist, by phone or web-chat, and even a place you can talk with others who have similar problems. Talking to anybody can be frightening, embarrassing or you might feel you are out of place. There is no need to worry, they are freindly with tons of experience talking to younger people.
Overthinking is common, it is something I do myself. In my case however I'm not alone, I've somone I respect who tells me if my mind is racing along to fast and only seeing the bad outcomes. It is a huge comfort to me as life seems so miserable and hopeless unless this is held in check.
I know your parents have their problems, mum wiht her asthma and smoking and your dad with diabetes and eye problems.
In some ways that limits their world and they are not always able to do the things they did before, and this can leave a person feeling frustrated and useless. If you thought it might be a good idea and you were to tell them your troubles I'm sure not only would they be on your side and help, they would feel better in themselves too.
You sound a very loving and considerate person thinking of your parent's welfare before your own and no sensible person would ever hate someone like that, in fact they are more likley to admire your selflessness. They would also appreciate your strenght in coping wiht autism.
Please do not be put off by ignorant bullies, they are deeply at fault and if anything you should feel sorry for them. The Kid's Help Line may have some suggestions how to handle them.
I really would like it if you come back and said how you are getting on
BTW I noticed you had a guitar as a pic, do you enjoy music?
Croix
