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[Guest_29167713]

Hi I’ve had depression for many yrs and find that certain areas will trigger it . Which why I’ve moved a number of times but since this rental crisis. I had a server breakdown and hit my head on a wall which I had no control over and couldn’t stop . Between being overwhelmed and worried about being homeless to my young child refusing to go to school due to ongoing bullying she had . To then moving in with my son and his fiancé . Since then we have dealt with a lot that’s triggered my depression and my anxiety to extreme due to emotional abuse /mental . No matter what I do it’s not enough it seems or good enough. We need our own place but I cannot get help as I have no car and isolated . My son fiance has been rude towards us and for two days pulling my grandson away from me mostly . She did it tonight again when my son got home from work and he said nothing . I don’t have anyone to vent all and get support from and I’m so angry at the same time  . Not just about how I’m or we are treated but due to my youngest diagnosis and lack of support for her and she had health issues. I cannot fix one thing or fill my cup up . My son puts pressure on me despite conversation and explaining how things are etc . We need help 

[smallwolf]

hello and welcome. 

Firstly, I hope you get to see this and I apologise for the length of time it has taken for you to get a reply.

So .... I'm really sorry you're going through all of this—it sounds incredibly difficult and overwhelming with having to deal with everything at once.

I know you’re doing your best, even if it doesn’t feel like enough. Is there anyone that you feel you are able to talk to about your situation? A friend,  counselor, or a support group, just to help you feel less alone in all of this?

I hope things start to shift for you and that you find the help you and your family deserve.

[BlueLily]

Hi there,

Welcome to the forum. So sorry to hear all this you have been through and your struggles. 

I myself have depression and anxiety so I understand the need to avoid the triggers, which I do myself. When things get too overwhelming, I have used the mental health treatment plan provided by medicare (https://www.servicesaustralia.gov.au/mental-health-care-and-medicare?context=60092) to speak to a phycologist. If that's an option, they will provide some tools to deal with your specific scenarios.

Unfortunately given your son and his fiance are a young couple, they might not be able to empathise what you have been through as a mother and the effort required to support your young daughter. So understanding that and giving them privacy and space might bring you some peace and capability to not get hurt.

Take care...