My purpose in creating this thread is to discover a safe space where I
can freely express my inner struggles, while also seeking ways to
alleviate the ongoing psychological and physical distress I experience.
This perspective may resonate more with i...
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My purpose in creating this thread is to discover a safe space where I
can freely express my inner struggles, while also seeking ways to
alleviate the ongoing psychological and physical distress I experience.
This perspective may resonate more with individuals who tend to retreat
in response to extroverted expressions. However, I wholeheartedly
welcome those who can relate to such profound emotions.My primary
intention is not merely seeking sympathy or commiseration; instead, my
goal is to uplift myself from the deep hole I currently find myself in.
My struggles with morbid obesity and experiencing signs of a looming
heart attack have been daunting. I even had a mild one before, but I
resisted seeking medical help due to feeling misunderstood. Being
reduced to just a panic disorder in the community's eyes, with multiple
diagnoses, hasn't been beneficial for me, and it only adds to my
depression.Today's industry and its clinical approaches haven't
resonated with me, as I've operated differently for many decades. I
prefer not to adhere to any particular narrative or advocate specific
ways of survival in this confining world. My aim isn't to tell others
what to do, but rather to explore and influence my own path. Perhaps,
this thread will serve as an outlet for this purpose if it endures, or
if I choose to continue sharing.Lately, the cycles of despair have been
getting longer, and I find myself wrestling with a tight chest every
night, both psychologically and physically deteriorating. Despite having
plenty of support, I struggle to find conventional methods that truly
resonate with me.I hope to write about the various strategies I plan to
adopt, as I embark on the journey to overcome this latest extreme cycle.
At times, even simple tasks like mowing my own front lawn feel
challenging, and I no longer concern myself with the notions of right or
wrong. Perhaps, the government could provide assistance, but I fear it
might only lead to further disempowerment or unwanted
confrontations.Admittedly, I write better in the mornings, and I am
uncertain if this format suits me well. Nevertheless, this seems to be
my only outlet to reach out and express myself.