Never ending depression and anxiety

[Jay3322]

Been struggling with depression and anxiety for roughly the last ~20 years.

For a lot of that time, was self medicating, using alcohol and drugs. Been clean and sober now for 5 years.

I have a good job, good boss, loving parents. Not many friends, hardly at all, but I am not very social anyways.

I have everything one should have to be happy.

Yet, everyday I just feel empty, no real hope for a future, no interests, nothing I do gives me any level of joy that I can look forward to.

I am sick of this never ending feeling of emptyness. I feel like everything is just fake and hollow in this world. 

Anyways, I needed to just unload my thoughts in the hopes it would make me feel a little lighter.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Jay3322,

Thank you for sharing here. It sounds like this is something you have been dealing with for a long time now and we hope that talking about it here can feel helpful – it is a lot to carry on your own.

You have done an amazing job in getting to where you are now. It can feel really frustrating when we are doing all of the 'right' things and are still feeling that sense of emptiness.
If you ever want to talk this through with one of the Beyond Blue counsellors, feel free to give us a call on 1300 22 4636, or reach out through Online Chat here.  
 
Thank you for sharing this and giving this community a chance to offer you their understanding and advice. We’re here to listen and offer support, and you never know how your story might help someone else.  
 
Kind regards,  
Sophie M