dear Mares, this maybe in different lots as the brain thinks of something else.
Maybe I should start backwards and how I remain depression free, but just a side line before I say what ever is that I am not pervious or totally insulated from having a relapse, which I did when Tessie my 18 year old little dog had to be put down, so I had a relapse for a couple of days, but I knew that I would get better, and that's the strong point here, THAT I WOULD GET BETTER, but in this relapse I let this illness consume me, I couldn't fight it, but that didn't matter, I knew that it would only last a short time.
That's the confidence that I need and when people here on this site never believe that they will improve, then look around the corner and what do you see, there's another world waiting there for you, and I will describe this in part 2.
99% of my time I have established a hard being, skin or surface in that I know that if someone else has depression, and I'm talking about people, family or new friends out there in a day by day situation, is that I can listen, understand and help them in what ever way possible, just as I do here on this site, because it's very important for these people to want to communicate, and by having this hard exterior means that I don't become depressed by what is said, so this is by having a hard exterior.
However I am a passionate and caring fellow, sorry guys, always have been and always will be, but when I was in depression it was very subdued, which is something that I really hated.
Sure I do worry for you and everyone else, and I can totally understand what and where you are coming from, and hell I appreciate every comment that you as well as everyone else make in your desperate need to overcome this illness.
Part 2 to follow. L Geoff. x
