Hey there!
I would just like to say you are a very
brave and caring person! The fact that you came online and mustered all of that
and typed it up is very brave, and it also shows how much you care about
yourself, that you want to fix what you feel is broken, and that is the right
you have upon yourself. Thank you.
I would just like to say that the
advice your counselor gave you is not the best advice, people feel that after a
meltdown they feel better, and they might, but its short lived, you will wake
up the next day and the feeling will still be there. So I suggest we seek an
alternative to a meltdown.
You should not be trying to stop your
emotions and ignore them, because that’s not the goal, the goal is to try and
overcome them, not shut them out and pretend they’re not there. You feel how
you feel and that’s the reality. Everyone feels something, and you’re taking
the right step by trying to overcome it and not just live with it.
We are all human beings, and our
emotions fluctuate, they go up and go down. We are all going through something,
so don’t feel like you’re alone. You are a human being, and you have a purpose
in this world, whether you realise it or you don’t, you’re here for a reason,
and I know that sounds cliché, but it’s the truth.
My sincere advice to you, as a friend,
is to find something worth living for, something worth waking up for. Moral
support is good, people are good, but they are humans, and have their own
things to deal with too. Search for something that brings peace to your heart,
find what is good for your soul. What have you done in your past that has
brought joy to your heart? That has given you purpose? do that and do it more
often.
There is a point to life, and its not
about having the best job, and the best car, with the best spouse, drowning in
riches. This is all materialistic stuff, that can actually make a person worse.
So don’t base your happiness on these things, don’t compare yourself, don’t
measure yourself up, you are you. You are unique, and there is goodness within
you. But maybe you’re such a modest and humble person, you don’t want to admit
it. I know there is good in you, and there can be more good in you. Just find
the goodness, and ditch the bad stuff. You probably wonder how do I ditch
something that I feel every second of the day? It may be hard at the start
because you have made it a habit to feel like this, to the point, when its not
there, you feel like its strange to be without it, so you will reel it back in.
Your life is valuable, and its not fair
for a person to decide I don’t want to be here anymore. You are here, you were
brought here, for a purpose. You have a body, a heart, and a soul. You are so
deserving of being here, and contributing to something. Look at the beauty
within your life, you can see, you can hear, you can breathe, you have all
these working faculties, you have a home, you have food, and water, you have
the ability to read, write, compare, contrast, reason etc. And even if you didn’t
have all of this, there is beauty within everyones life. You are beautiful.
Find something stable and true that is
worth living for. Believe in something.
