Hi Black Bean
Thanx heaps for getting back to us – and as weird as this is going to sound, what you’re experiencing, while it is awful, it is a horrible thing/illness that we have to contend with, but from what you explain, it is normal (amongst us).
I think there’s been so many discussions over the time about just what IS normal – so that’s another topic for another time.
I was so pleased to read that the start of your week started out ok – which is brilliant. “While at work, things are ok”; which again is awesome, and I believe this is because we are responsible for things to happen, to be done and as such, our minds are pretty much occupied for that entire time (well for most of it). So that the evil thoughts can’t quite intrude, so yes, when we’re alone or having down time, it’s then that they can come back to us and burn us down.
This is where we need to have a number of mechanisms in place so we can try to keep these awful thoughts/feelings at bay.
So yep, work is one of them.
Being on some kind of medication can certainly help as well – to be releasing the chemicals that we can’t naturally produce.
Forms of activities such as hobbies, exercise, sports, music, reading, just things that interest us – so we can help to occupy our minds as much as possible and by doing this, it can hopefully help to push those evil thoughts to the back of our head – the further the better.
I hope I’ve made some kind of sense for you, Black Bean. And as always, please write back, it’s awesome to hear from you.
Kind regards
Neil
