Thanks so much for sharing your experiences mate it sounds really brutal and I'm really sorry to hear what you're going through. Really sorry to hear about the finances and the issues with the car, washer etc and with the water. Sounds like just one thing after the other, it must be so awful.
Psychologists definitely don't have any magic answers in my experience, but for me it's still been really helpful to see one regularly. Have you been able to set up a mental health care plan with your GP? These allow you to see a psych or social worker of your choice 12 times a year for free (and this year we've got an additional 10 sessions, at least in Victoria). Don't know where you're based but there are also peer support groups out there. I ran one through ADAVIC in Brunswick Victoria for 4 ish years - it went to online during the lockdowns but hopefully will start up again soon. Interestingly, these groups tend to be 60/40 split men/women - the theory is that men tend to find it much more difficult raising this stuff with friends or doctors. There are also some men's only groups out there like Victorian Brotherhood, Men's Shed and Men's Line who get how weird and uncomfortable it can be talking about this stuff, talking about meds etc etc. I've been on meds for 10+ years now and sometimes I still hate it and struggle to accept it.
Psychologists also typically can't address the financial stuff you're facing, so you might have to look elsewhere for help on that. Will you have some proper money coming in soon to deal with the water, washer, car, computer etc? If not is it possible to get a no interest loan to help you out? I'm not an expert but there are organisations like Good Shepherd that do no interest loans, and I think there are some extra grants available due to COVID they can offer as well.
I know how hard it must be, but most people on here will tell you excess booze generally makes things worse, specially in the long run! When I was really bad I'd just by one or two cans/stubbies, not a cask or six pack or anything, to control how much I'd be able to drink. Little tricks like that help manage lots of the other patterns/habits you need to weaken (or good ones you need to create) as well. There are no magic answers but thanks again for posting on here, and post as much as you like! Sharing this stuff can help both you and those who read it and respond.
