Do not feed the monster

[Emotions26]

I am struggling to understand this website and find my way around

I have replied to some people

I think that two champions replied to my first two posts

I do not know where they are now

I have supported several posts of others

I have replied to one person I think today

I am resonating with several posts in different areas but cannot remember where they are

I am literally lost within this website as well as within myself

I am working very hard at keeping the dreaded "D" at bay which I have battled with too many times.

I have had this since young apparently

I have had large gaps of time where I am mostly symptom free I think

The monster is the dreaded "d"

It is also a relative whom I have had to relinquish her hold over me.

I have only learnt about this stuff recently so struggle talking about it.

So I think of do not feed the monster as in do not think of her. Or do not feel guilty or upset or worry or a thousand other things

Also do not feed the dreaded "d" as it lurks waiting

I will not find this piece again

[Emotions26]

Hello Eagle Ray

I had read your reply some time ago on a rare occasion that I visited Beyond Blue

I felt that it was important for me to not try to understand what was going on in my mind as my mind was so busy already

How am I now?

Good question if I say so myself

Different definitely from how I was yet still working through things

This will be an ongoing journey in my own time for as long as it lasts or rather I continue to pursue

I have cut back on therapy sessions also

I am still not going out very much at all and am behind in medical appointments

I am where I am and currently not spinning around

How are you in yourself currently?

Have you been able to spend time on the forums and sense some relief?

As a valued contributor you know which people you feel most at ease with which would be of help

I cannot think what to say other than I hope that there has been some shifting in your symptoms 

Also that you can find joy in some things

Nature is still my best friend although the weather confines me to indoors mostly

Take care

Ems