Can’t function

[Hollyy_m]

Honestly idk how these things work but I have a big problem. I can’t function like a normal person like I just can’t get up and go to school every day and answer normal questions and do things and have showers. And listening to that you’d think it’s like depression but I’m not sure it is because I don’t feel sad or depressed. I’ve been suicidal before and all that and it’s not like that at all. I ither feel completely numb, like the world is ending or on top of the world and unstoppable. And I don’t have the energy to control the swings so I kind of just sleep and drink my life away. Like I can’t keep focused on one emotion or one subject or anything. I was meant to get my laptop fixed 2 months ago. I was meant to get 2 blood tests a month ago and see a few doctors and I bailed on all of them. I literally haven’t showered in a long time and I havent gone to school in 2 weeks my mum is so disappointed It’s so annoying but I can’t getround to doing things. The week there was mould growing in my room and there still is like what am I doing. And it’s not like I don’t do anything at all I’ll go out and see my mates and get drinks but that’s it. Idk what’s wrong with me at I just super lazy.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Hollyy m,

Thank you for reaching out to us so bravely this morning. We know it isn't an easy thing to do, asking for help and advice like you have. But it is so important that you have and we hope you will continue to do so in this safe and non-judgmental environment. 

We want you to benefit from the peer support, advice, conversation and understanding our forums community can provide. Many of them will have experienced something similar to what you are going through. While the support offered by this diverse community who all have personal experience with mental health is often quick, it's important to remember it is not immediate. For more immediate support, you should reach out to our support service 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 or our firends at KidsHelpline on 1800 55 1800. They also offer 24/7 webchat counselling which you can access here: https://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/webchat-counselling.

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[white knight]

Hi, welcome

Well, we cant diagnose here at all. However, your routine seems unusual and you would benefit greatly by taking Sophie's advice above. You need help and a doctors visit is one first point of call.

You said your mum is disappointed in you. There is no harm at all in the truth- tell her you are feeling unusual, havent got energy etc etc and you'd like to see a doctor and go from there. I'm hoping she will support you and seek a diagnosis.

I spent most of my 64 years without a diagnosis and 12 years ago I got one and it changed my life forever.

Good luck.

TonyWK

[amberlite]

Hi and hope today is better for you, I do a bit of depression surfing myself. It can get scary exhausting, for about a month I have not removed body hair- It freaks my sister out, My point is why go thru the pain when the stupid hair just comes back, also when I'm blue the epilator hurts more. So I get it and support your low care routine. Eventually the tide will turn and we will feel better, till then take care Dude, that's silly surfer talk.bye

[Cee123]

Hi there, no you're definitely not lazy. So sorry for what you're going through. What you are going through is definitely depression. But don't worry - because there are a lot of people in the same position as you. You are not alone. You are not broken. Things can get better. I've been in the same position as you, and continue to be on my worse days. At my worst point a few years ago, I've had days where I couldn't even get out of bed or shower myself. I just didn't do anything. Drinking does help, but it's probably not a permanent (or healthy) solution. I hope you're ok. I'm so sorry you're going through that. That's what I love about this community - we're always here for each other.

[Juliet]

Hi Hollyy m,

I am in a similar situation. Not getting out of bed, not showering etc but not feeling totally down either like I have in the past.

It is definitely not being lazy. I am constantly feeling guilty about not putting more effort in and blaming myself. Looking at other people worse off than me and feeling bad about not trying but I know it is really not about that. I have an illness which makes it very hard for me that is all. I imagine it is very hard for you with your mum not really grasping what is going on. I have great support and find it very hard!

I do think you have got some depression at the moment. Have you taken any medication before? I find it does help for me. Maybe you could show your Mum some literature on depression so she can understand the facts and know it is not just about a lack of effort too. Just some thoughts 🙂

Sending you love,

Juliet