Hi again
I have a history of sensitivity that at 69yo have well and truly overcome and am much stronger. My story on my sensitivity is so relevant to your situation. Please read carefully to find out how I moved forward.
As a 13yo I suffered a trauma that was a terrible ordeal. My brother nearly drowned, I was the only one there to help him. I didnt talk for 3 months after that, not one word. Following that I was extremely sensitive and cried buckets of tears daily. Even so at 17yo I left home to join the Airforce and i was hard as I was seen as a sook. So I hated myself for being so fragile.
At 40yo still struggling I began to write poetry and that allowed me to release my emotions onto paper. (you'll find many of my poems here- https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/bb-social-zone/the-poetry-corner-post-your-poems-in-here/td-p/54... some funny, many sad so I found my outlet for my sadness.
Finally in 2009 I was diagnosed with bipolar, anxiety and depression but also DYSTHYMIA and recently told I'm under the autism spectrum. The last two, I studied up on and found that sensitivity and constant depression pointed towards my sensitivity to the point whereby it all made sense. Subsequent medication for bipolar and depression changed my life completely, I became stronger, less emotional and began to function more normally. My marriage became more stable and I found new strength towards abrasive people so I could move forward from them not being upset anymore.
Without that treatment I'd be a hopeless case of living in a void, detached from society, a hermit of sorts with no connections to others. Bare in mind also that up to 20% of people are HSP- Highly sensitive People. But essentially the best thing you can do for yourself is to seek out treatment that include a proper diagnosis and subsequent medication and therapy. Start with your GP. Action is required, talking alone wont change anything.
Here is a few threads, just read the first page.
https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/highly-sensitive-people-hsp/td-p/480942
https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/depression/depression-and-sensitivity-a-connection/td-p/47148
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BhrtbBrMQ1Y
TonyWK
