Inner chatter - Wish it would go away

[Bella_____]

I'm very new to this. But l have reached a point where my anxiety is determining my quality of life or rather my enjoyment of it. I am typically a very positive person and l don't believe in thinking otherwise. But it's like l have something inside of me that is determined to think otherwise.  I have so much internal dialogue. Usually all crammed in my head before l go to work.Thought's of too much to do.  That l'm not got enough. That l'm not a good person. My mind goes off on so many tangents is just not funny. It's gotten to the point if l don't write lists. I can't get through a work day. And l forget easily on things l need to do.  I get so caught up in these thoughts l waste time doing nothing and thus achieving nothing.  Which sets me further behind.   Then the snowball effect follows. I put things off that are so simple. For what reason l do not know. Then that just feeds me anxiety. I find it incredibly easy to help others and see what they need and l am able to give quite helpful advice.  But l'm finding a disconnect when it comes to myself. It's like l set myself up for my  own road blocks.

Anyway this is just a little on how l'm feeling at the moment.  Looking forward to reading what others are experiencing and finding a little comfort that l can move past this in a productive manner.

[acacia100]

Thanks for your reply CMF. I have noticed with myself i just wake up anxious, my first thoughts upon waking are worries about 'something' i should be doing or haven't done, like waking up with a pit of dread in my chest. Its so strange! but now that i notice it i am trying to reframe my thoughts into more positive or realistic things as soon as i wake and i have had some success with that. A lot of my anxiety comes directly from the thoughts i have about myself not being worthy etc and its a subconscious habit iam trying hard to break. This week has been better, i am lucky to have some amazing people in my world who i love to bits and who make me smile, this makes me feel grateful and lucky to be me.

Another technique i have been trying to calm the inner chatter is to focus on a particular part of your body and just try and stay with it, try and feel the energy within your body just one bit at a time. Eventually you can feel it and can move the energy. I find this can take your brain away from the racing thoughts. I am still practicing this and its not always easy but worth a try. I am sure there are websites that describe it better than i did though. Good luck CMF, i hope you are feeling calmer today.

[Guest_1584]

yeah l have the problem a lot .

l've always had a very active mind and when most people would be exhausted and worn out from a topic or some convo or worries in life whatever, my damn mind can easily just go on and on and on. Often l have 5 or 10 huge things going on in life work relationship , bills whatever you name them all at once plus add 1/2 a dozen , of which any one or two would blow up most people up.

But my mind can easily be hopping around back and forth to all of them all at once and still have room for more so it's a constant chittter chatter , l dunno how it works.

lt's good when l'm working , no trouble just focusing , or movies take me away, music, being close to my women, things like that. But just in everyday life, somebody give me a switch for crying out loud, in bed at night alone, day time, night time, doesn't stop. Drives me barmy.

[CMF]

Hi acacia,

I have found your thread and have posted to you there.

cmf x

[Guest_1584]

Although l was like that even as a kid and laid awake most nights, in life this last 5 or 6 urs there's just been sooooo much going on.

Sometimes l think all that has just wound me up so much more that my minds just gone up a few more gears and learnt to deal with all of it at once and then some,,, dunno.

But every now and then a few days roll around where there's just nothing to worry or think about and it's heaven. l secretly dream of just living , existing , getting up with nothing to think about, just being and living.

[CMF]

Hey randomx,

It sucks doesn't it? Constant noise. I find it annoying when i am trying to keep buy and it just will not stop. Even if it is nothing bad it is juts the constant talk going round and round. I too need a switch.

cmf

[acacia100]

Hi randomx. I can sense the frustration when your describing your experiences. It sucks doesnt it. Do you have any techniques to calm the chitter chatter that youve found helpful at all?

Its funny that you both said you need a switch! Its exactly how i feel too.

@cmf, i just read your post and will reply a bit later on. Thankyou!

[MiloGirl]

New here. I found what you said about depression being past and anexity being future very interesting.

I’ve been diagnosed with agitated depression, I have worked through most of that with my counciller, but of late anexity is my issue. I have a fear non stop of heart attack or illness, even tho I’m healthy the fear of being sick/Ill and it being missed.

i find it hard to talk about my feelings, I attempted to right them down but then I have anexity over ‘if I write them down then they are real not just in my head’

i find it hard to speak my feelings to my husband but I have been opening up more and more and it makes me feel like I’m a nut case. That I’m crazy. My husband has been supper supper supportive! So that’s good.

[Guest_1584]

Hi ya acia and c and everyone..Yeah it's a real pain but l've found a few things that bring it on and some that make it disappear.

A movie really helps me , music, working really helps , l work outside so l'm away from crap and just involved in what l'm doing, but just getting outside in the air and feeling the earth under my feet works wonders too, calms me straight away, not messaging too much , trying to stay of the computer, not that much luck there, worst thing in the world for my head.

lt's a such a shame but everything about life now l swear is designed to be as bad for us as possible like computers messaging , pressures , unnatural social lives on computers and phones instead of getting oit, the air the drive the real in person, all so good for us but we hardly do it anymore.

So personally , l find right across the board now,over stimulation is everywhere and the way life really effects our senses now makes things 3 times worse for the no switch problem. So l have to guard against all that too myself. We even have electrical impulses and microwaves flying all through our houses, the air outside , into our heads and nervous system.

For sleeping now they say people need to be off all gadgets an hour before sleep, just to get their mind back to normal. l don't have any of teh wi fi crap running in my house either, a TEchnician told me something like wi fi in your house even from your phone actually puts out more waves than a phone tower , so we really don't want that crap through our brains all day all night in the house either, l know it really makes a difference with me..