Hey all,
I'm new to the forum and I thought maybe it'd be a good idea to seek some help. I'm a young adult suffering from OCD for about two years now. Recently I've been suffering from intrusive sexual thoughts, which disgust me incredibly. The worst thing about it is that my thoughts start connecting to objects, specifically my pencils, pens and stationary. However, I'm about to start school again, which is when my anxiety starts to flare up especially. Not only are my intrusive sexual thoughts connecting to my pencils, but they're connecting to pillows, my homework, my textbooks, my cups, anything really. It is incredibly distressing and at some times I feel like I can't breathe. As I'm writing this post, I'm avoiding English homework because I feel stressed with the thought of using my pencil.
Even with trying my coping techniques, such as reading, it doesn't work because my intrusive thought will get attached to that too.
It's gotten through to the point where I can no longer enjoy fun times with my family and friends, study, do homework, or enjoy leisure activities I previously found pleasure in (reading, listening to music). I'm afraid that I'll have to be admitted back to a hospital soon if it gets any worse, and that place scares me to no end. Not to mention, it means I might fail school with a bunch of missed days already.
Please, does anyone have any advice for me to overcome this monstrosity that's taken over my life?
