Depressed over life

[Amielle]

I've been let go from the past 3 jobs i've had and im unemployed now. I have also gained weight from covid and unemployment and my confidence has gone down dramatically. I have been drinking a lot to cope with the stress and boredom. Last night i got so drunk I brought a random back home and they stole a couple hundred dollars worth sunglasses. I feel violated and unsafe in my room now. I cant look at my wall or bed without thinking of what happened. I feel so stupid because i could have prevented the situation. I dont really feel I have a good support system 😞 No one around me likes doing normal things. I feel hopeless. I just want the strength to bounce back and have a good life. 

[Sophie_M]

Hello and welcome to the forums, 

We are so glad to see you have reached out for support and hope that our community will be a wonderful space of care and guidance for you. 😊

It really sounds like things are extra tough right now... when we go through life and things feel like they aren't turning out how we would like, despite our best efforts, it can truly become all-consuming. You're not alone in this feeling at all. 

Your coping strategies make a lot of sense, so please know you are not stupid. It's very common to turn to alcohol when we are experiencing big emotions that are hard to sit with. Though, it sounds like you're feeling really vulnerable after what happened with this person who stole from you. I'm so sorry this happened, it must have really shaken you. I hope you are feeling safe at home? Overall, it seems like a strong support system would mean a lot to you right now. I have a few questions if you'd be open to answering! 

1. What would your ideal support system look like?
2. When was the last time you felt more like 'you'?
3. And lastly, what is one little thing that is going well right now? 

Looking forward to your reply. Please don't hesitate to ask any questions here or add to your story whenever you would like. 💙

Warm regards, 
Sophie M.