Hi again
Another rant. At work, I made stupid mistakes with my email messages, had a bad brain day,& I felt such an idiot for making it, in my head, I really try too not, no one else makes mistakes, I check & I thought its okay. I think people at work think I'm an idiot & can't be trusted, as they check my work, my rational side says, its just a double check, though I have heard some people need their hand hold.
I didn't have a traumatic family life, my anxiety comes out when I'm with strangers or work colleagues, I can't seem to do things right. I just want to be at home, where I can't be rude or selfish or hurt anyone. If you are a bad person or do the wrong thing, some people think shaming you works, but it doesn't,
Some people at work give me a strange look, so I know I've done something wrong.
I don't know, am I making it up inmy head? Am I a lier? Why do I have the wrong perspective about things, I seem not to care about the wrong things at work, people go off at me for not caring if the binders make a mistake with the outside cover, even though I asked & got told no, its not worth sending it back, I couldn't tell that to them, they got sarcastic & I nervous, then I still get in trouble.
Sorry, there are people with worse problems than me, much worse, like the covid & the afghanis.
