What to do when feeling like doing nothing all the time

[Zeraxero]

Hi all what do you do when you dont feel like doing anything at all and it goes on for an extended stint. Even the things i used to do to combat this arnt working at all anymore which was video games and i just cant get into them anymore and im always exhausted and tired. A little bit about me i guess is that i live on a farm away from everything and i cant get into town, i have no friends , im 21 , im overweight, i have BPD , depression and anxiety. I am extremely discontent with my life and cant really afford to get help as much as needed. Really dont know what to do as i cant just lie down all the time but i cant bring myself to do anything and its worse than it has been before. The town that is closest doesn't really have the services for someone with my issues but i cant move anywhere. So what should i do im slowly losing myself. Thanks for caring

[Zeal]

Hi Zeraxero,

Welcome to the forum!

I'm 22 and have had OCD (anxiety disorder) since the age of 13. I had mild to moderate depression during some of my teen years.

If you don't mind me asking, have you sought help for mental illness before? It sounds as though you may have been diagnosed with anxiety, depression and BPD by a doctor. Living in a rural isolated area presents challenges for social interaction and service access, as you are fully aware. Perhaps explore some online counselling or self-help resources on the internet. Beyond blue has helpful info and links in Get Support in the drop-down menu.

If you don't mind me asking, do you live with your family/siblings? Try to open up to family members and share what you're feeling. Perhaps there is one family member you are closer to and could seek emotional support from.

Keep talking here on the forum. Hopefully I'll hear back from you 🙂

Best wishes,

SM

[Guest_1055]

Hey Zeraxero

I wanted to say hello to you, and give you a welcome hug...And

yeah I know what you mean, when you say you don't feel like doing anything. It is a real challenge to get off the bed even some days. Sometimes I think it helps to post in here on the Beyond Blue forums. Some days, I just lie on the bed and do this. I have an e- reader device, which I type on.  And when you think about it, you are actually doing something. It it can be good for you, as you have the opportunity to give to others and also other people may benefit from your words, as they may feel not alone, helped, loved or whatever. So for me after I read what over people write and reply, I do feel a little encouraged and not so alone, thus it helps motivate me to actually rise up from this bed and get moving. So maybe it would be the same for you....... But having said that, some peoples lives are very sad and they have been through a lot of traumatic circumstances and are hurting a great deal. So reading these posts may be hard to read if you are anything like me.

When I feel discontent, I just look around the room even, and find me many things I like. Like this fan that is now blowing on me, removing the stuffiness of this room. The softness of this bed. Things like that......

Anyway I hoped you received my hug.

With love

Shelley xxx

PS.  Do you have any animals on your farm? And how far away is town?

[Zeraxero]

we have some animals on our farm we have 6 horses i think i lose track of the horses as i have never been a horse person as i find racing them as a job is sketchy which is what my parents do so i stayed away from that. I also have 3 dogs 1 of them is extremely old and never leaves my mums side, a diffrent dog dosent like to be near anyone and just likes to be alone we got her later on in her life and she was always like that and never warmed up to anyone. My last dog is the dog i got from the pound on recomendation from a old doctor i had when i was first diagnosed about 5 years ago and he comes in my room a fair bit but again is just really lazy and wants to sleep all the time. Town which is tamworth is about 20 Minuets away ,one way, and my parents hate town so we always stay home and there is no public transport anywhere near my house and i dont have my P's yet as i wasnt a priority in my family until i hurt myself about 5 years ago and even then i wasnt a concern to anyone and was just ignored by my family and everyone. 

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[Zeraxero]

I do live with my parents and i have a sister but asfar as being close the only thing i have in common with any of them is my DNA. My parents never cared or tried to connect to me, my father was abusive drunk when i was younger but he is much better now but we dont exactly act like a normal family. My mum and dad sleep in different beds in different rooms and spend 10mins a day tops together and i mean absolute tops. They if i am feeling down or worried ill hurt myself ill tell my mum and she wont say anything and just go back to what she was doing. Even when i do attempt she dosent really care she will pick me up from hospital and everything will go back the way they where before i tried. My dad is the ultimate pessimist and my mother isnt even an optimist she just is spaced out and never in touch with reality and just watches tv all the time and it has always been like that. My sister has 2 kids of her own and she wont talk to me about this kind of thing as she blames me alot for how we grew up in an abusive and unsupportive environment as she left when she was 16 and never looked back. My family as a whole dosent really care about me or each other noone talks to each other and the relationships are toxic at best. I have been told multiple times over the years from various family members to just keep it to myself as noone cares and they dont want to be bothered talking to me.
If i manage to straighten out my life and move away from my family i plan on never really making contact again as it is just so toxic and painful to talk to anyone since noone cares about each other outside of their own blood family i guess its called mum dad kids that kind of thing. Alot of it has to do with my mums side hating my dads side so not much of anything i can do but get out of it.  I have also talked to doctors and case managers for the last 5 years since ive been diagnosed but as far as they can tell from what i recall ive had depressions and BPD even longer than a decade and im only 21. On monday im going to ring up the local psychologist firm and ask them about fees and rates and what not to see if my health care and gp plan covers some of it since i need to fix this or im going to lose more control.

[Guest_1055]

Hello

I am not sure if you are still awake. I was thinking of you. Wondering how you were getting along today. And even what you have been doing? Just sending another friendly hug in case you need or want one.

With love

Shelley xx

[covertheskies]

Hey Zeraxero,

 You've got quite the stitch! 

First of all, I would recommend that you go for your P's (or L's if you haven't already.) Getting a licence will give you the independence you need to be able to drive to Headspace or other mental health organisations. 

Have you considered watching Gaming youtubers seeing as you're not feeling up to playing games yourself? Eg. Jacksepticeye, Pewdiepie, Markiplier.

Have you used call support before? Perhaps speaking on the phone with someone will give you more of a feeling of human interaction that way. I know that typing messages and whatnot can sometimes seem distant as if a spambot has typed it, but hearing a supportive voice may help.

 Your family environment seems quite toxic, do you think you'd be better off living in a home of your own as you're 21? There are organisations catered to homeless people etc that would help you kickstart your independence given your parents don't seem to be very supportive. The people at said companies may even be able to "hook you up" with other young adults your own age so you're not so isolated.

But yeah, focus on your P's, it seems like a brilliant first step.

Best of luck, buddy!