What happen to me? :'(

[Nancyyy]

I don't wanna go home tonight! I had bursted my anger last night with my sister for no reasons. I am not sure why i was so angry and feel so annoyed when she wake me up and tell me something. Then i just cried and no one seem to understand and i maybe dont understand as well. So i didnt feel well this whole day and now its time to leave school and go home but i dont wanna to. I called and lie to my aunt that im going out with my friend. But in fact im not going out i stayed inside my car and writing this shit. I plan to go back home later at night.

I moved abroad to study and live with my sister. I havent talked to my parents for six months now i love them so much but i dont know why i dont make the call. To me i dont have any friends here. Im just by myself. I want to just disappear but i am not a suicidal. I just want to move somewhere that i dont know anyone at all and no one know me either. I dont know.. i have goal that i want to focus on sometimes i just work so hard to make it happen and totally leave other things behind. These day i feel that i forgot how to be happy, maybe im not sure who am i anymore.

[Jessicatherese94]

Hi Nancy and welcome to the forums! Really sorry to hear you're struggling right now. You said very aware of what you're feeling (that you were angry at your sister for no reason) - do you have any coping strategies that can help when you start to feel that way? Can you talk to your sister about how you're feeling? It sounds like you do truly love and miss your family, can you call them and have a chat? I think in life it's really important to have a balance of work/study/friends time etc - what is your school like and how can you go about making friends if you'd like to? Perhaps join a sporting team/try something new - that has worked for me in the past. If things get too overwhelming you can always contact Lifeline 131114 or maybe go to your GP to get a referral for a psychologist. I would love to hear from you. Hang in there. J.