Struggling with happiness, motivation, and the ability to concentrate

Cesca1557 · ‎23-08-2017

Hi,

Ive never posted on a forum before but i thought it would be a good way to vent and ask for a few tips.
Ive had depression and anxiety for almost 7 years now but throughout all the years Ive always managed to keep my motivation levels towards studying at either high school or university high. However the past two weeks I have really struggled to get out of bed to do the work that I need to do, and when I am listening to the lectures or beginning to write out notes or memorise content, I find myself zoning out or losing focus really easily. I have a lot of assessments and tests next week so usually this would be the time where I would ramp up study so that I could cram in everything I need to know by then, but I cant seem to concentrate for long enough to do what I need to do.

The last few weeks have been average to say the least, ive been feeling very empty and numb at times and I sometimes cry multiple times a day. A lot of different things have been hitting me recently and I have been struggling to deal with it all. I have a psychologist appointment in a week and a half but I just dont know what to do in the mean time.

swtpotato · ‎11-09-2017

Hi Cesca,

hope you are doing well. I definitely get what you mean with the study rush at the moment, the libraries at uni have been packed due to major essays and midsems on this week.

That's interesting that you can just put everything to the side and focus on study, I find I am the opposite. I have to deal with my emotions first before I do anything else, and I have always had problems with procrastinating. It's interesting to see how both approaches have different pros/cons, and are more like different ways of prioritising issues.

Good to hear the medication is going well.

- EM

Pysis · ‎11-09-2017

Hi C

i didn't know you had another thread.

hope your doing ok

Nath

Cesca1557 · ‎11-09-2017

Hi romantic_thi3f,
Im defintely going much better now, i started taking AD's about 10 days ago and the nausea side effects have almost gone now so hopefully it will just get better from here on.
Yea it is difficult, but its what ive always done and in a way it has helped me to get to where i am, because its allowed me to still do really well at school and with studying despite everything. it just means that sometimes everything comes to the surface pretty quickly
but im definitley trying to deal with the emotions that i am feeling from now on
no i havent had the appointment yet! i had to cancel it as i didnt realise i had a practical for uni that day which was compulsory, and the next avaliable appointment isnt until october so i might try to find another psychologist. so nothing to share at the moment

how have you been? also do you have a thread? would love to come and share some support

Cesca1557 · ‎11-09-2017

Hi em
yea everything is a bit crazy! after this week though hopefully it will die down a little bit. are you studying at uni as well?

yea usually i am able to which is a blessing when i need to get work done i must admit. however sometimes im not able to which was the case for a few weeks when i originally posted this thread. yea very interesting to hear the sorta opposite way of dealing with things! yours is probably much much better for you in the long run haha
but yes im a terrible procrastinator as well
i saw your post on the get to know you thread so i will check out your thread later tonight, just trying to reply to threads quickly first!
nice to hear from you!

cesca

Cesca1557 · ‎11-09-2017

hey nath,

yea i do, i think this one was my first one actually! the few weeks where i posted this was really what gave me the final push to go to the doctors and start ad's

thanks! todays been a nice day actually, pretty crazy busy but sometimes thats good cause it doesnt leave you much time to think about anything

swtpotato · ‎11-09-2017

Hi Cesca,

Yeah I am in 3rd year studying Geography though I won't finish till the end on next year. I only did 1 subject last sem at home and figured out a lot of strategies and got a good work ethic going but as soon as it gets busy its back to the procrastinating haha. Interesting how difficult it is to change our core habits, but I am optimistic.

I think it's a really good skill to be able to just get things done despite what you're going through, good luck with all that cramming. Make sure to schedule in fun/relaxing stuff too!

I am in a similar boat with the medication - hopefully it starts working for both of us soon 🙂

Em

Cesca1557 · ‎13-09-2017

Yea it can be pretty crazy when it gets really busy and theres a lot to do! Procrastinating is definitley very hard to stop doing but thats so good you are trying! I probably should myself haha
dont worry i definitley make sure i get to relax as well 🙂
thankyou! its been almost two weeks now which is pretty exciting! hoping it begins to help soon and hoping the same for you!
how has your day been?

swtpotato · ‎13-09-2017

hey,

it's great you sound so motivated,

Tbh it has not been the best. Things are getting overwhelming and I can hardly study.

It is on my thread.

I need to take my own advice

hope yours is going better

em

Cesca1557 · ‎14-09-2017

hey em,
definitely not as motived right now as i was a few days ago. feeling very defeated and low and i cant really study at the moment either
i relied to your thread a day or so ago, forgot to say on here though!
hope youre doing okay today

romantic_thi3f · ‎21-09-2017

Hey Cesca1557,

Thanks for your post.

Sorry for the late reply! How are you feeling now? Sounds like you're not having too many side effects from the medication which is really good to hear.

Completely understand about having to cancel the appointment, but I imagine it'd be frustrating to do so! Sadly Uni has to come first sometimes. Were you able to find another psychologist?

Oh, and to answer your question - I don't have a thread 🙂 I just reply to others! But I'm doing okay.