Hi Life.in the slow lane welcome here
You prefer "a corner in a dark room"? And that's bad yes? I dont agree. But I know why you feel that way.
See, that same dark corner was once where I felt haunted, deprived, neglected and all alone. Then one day, during one of my positive moments, I embraced it. I then saw it as a safe haven where no one else can hurt me, a place where few can feel similar and a place I can create.
This was 25 years ago. Then within my safe house (my corner) I got so much emotional depth I began to write poetry, sad poetry, loving poetry and poetry that reached out to others like war veterans and family members.
Today 25 years later I have 250 poems, some published in magasines, some sent to victims of crime. Some about animals.
I have depression, dysthymia, bipolar 2 and used to have anxiety. I was diagnosed about 12 years ago. As the correct medication took hold about 5 years ago I've lost a lot of contact with my dark corner. I write much less poetry. I can no longer choose to write it.
We are dealt a hand of cards in our early life that we have no control. Yet, in our adulthood we do have control (to an extent) and can carve our way through life as we decide. Sadly many sufferers of their childhood do not recognise that they can shape their own future. By changing their lifestyle (eg city to country living), their employment (eg city factory to country outback station), ridding their lives of toxic people that dont support but belittle or try to destroy, pursuing a passion etc they can make their life much happier. Some of the time these "fixes" are so obvious but elude us through fear or obligation to family etc.
My dad (dec) used to say "we are in a rut, we'll be right next week". He had not idea of the mental illness that riddled our family.
So, lifeintheslowlane I hope you can open and extend your wings to life.
Thankyou for your post Tony WK
