School related stress

[Dejena]

Hi, i would like start of by saying, i dont know what im doing. i dont even know where to start because of how overwheamed i feel. how to i express my feelings without complaning? i dont want to compalian. so, its currently 4:33 AM and am trying to do homeowork. You may be wondering why? why at this time? well, i will tell you. its becuase the day is not for me. do u know why? its because during the day the house is loud. if i wear my headphones my ears will hurt and i will get fustrated at the noise. i also need to do chores. i dont know what im even saying. i dont even know why im writing and posting this. this just sounds silly. you know, i went to the doctor becuase my chest was hurting, and they said it was becuase of panic attacks, and that i was shaking, high blood pressure, and heart beating fast. but now im wondering if the doctor was wrong, what if it wasnt because of stress? what if it was becaue of the mask i wore for hours at school, not compaing for wearing a mask by the way. During the day my family will come into my room and intrupt me, while i try and do homework. sometimes i fell bad for taking long oding homework, and i wonder if im actullay learning something. i feel like im not good enough. if i go to the libray my parens will be annoyed at the face they have to pick me up and drop me off. i am doing 3 science subjects. i dont really like phyics or doing particularlly well it in it, so i want to change it do HHD, but then there is something in me, saying what if i will able to do phyics and not fail, and if i drop phyicis that not good enough, im not good enough, i am worthless. at the same time i dont like phyics. IDK. tell me, am i overreacting. You know, after that doctors apointment, i cried in the car, while my dad was in it, because i felt like i was crazy and out of control. alsot the doc said i was skinny, hoever i have allways been ksinny, no matter how much i eat i dont gain weight and i also look younger than i really am. when i have a break from doing homeowrk, i struggleto go back to my desk and get going with it after my break, i stat to procarte and how longer breaks. after i do chores, i dont feel lie doing homework sometiemes. idk if its sbecause maybe i found doing the chores as a btter option than doing homeowkrk. i feel out of control. its currently 4:50 AM. what has my life become? idk?

[Here2Talk]

Don't worry about how you sound 🙂 I understand you're feeling stuff at the moment. It would be worthwhile talking to anyone who will listen and be honest and try to help you problem solve. If that's your mum, great. If that's a counselor, guidance officer, psychologist, that's good too. Is your mum someone you feel you can talk to about your subjects, your study load, and figuring out a way to study in a reasonably comfortable environment?

How long is it now since you last slept?

[Here2Talk]

Apologies for squeezing so much stuff into each message, in a face to face interaction you wouldn't have so much in each exchange, but there's such a big time lag in between each reply that it would take a long time if I didn't.

[Dejena]

i jyust didint sleep at nigh, but i sleept for basiclly the whole day. so t was ok to to stay up all night.

[Dejena]

i think i am going to sleep in a few minutes and wake up at night to do homework or something maybe.

if u have a rotuine i u think i should follow then u can tell me, maybe i will flow that rotuine or some of it.

[Here2Talk]

You won’t be able to sleep during the day because you have school, right? Again I can’t give any health recommendations, but the state government recommends 8-10 hours for teenagers. We are biologically evolved to sleep at nighttime, where it’s generally quiet and dark.

[Dejena]

i have already slept for like 5 hours. good enough.

can we talk about a rotiune that might work for me?

i live in VIC

[Here2Talk]

Okay. So I guess look at what you’ve got on during the day. You have school at what 9am roughly?

What time do you have to start to do all the things one does in the morning (eg. eat breakfast, get dressed, make lunch, pack your bag).

And it finishes at 3pm right? Do you have a part time job or anything after school on the weekends?

The chores you mentioned, are they something you have to do, or are they optional? If you must do them, when do you do them, and how long does it take, approximately? In an ideal world, what time would you go to sleep?

[Here2Talk]

And what is your routine at the moment, if you follow one?

[Sophie_M]

Hi Dejena,

It sounds like you are having a really yough time with your study at the moment and we are so sorry to hear that. School can be really challenging especially when you have homework and home life to deal with as well. We think it is really encouraging that you have come to the forums for support, it is an amazingly brave step to take.

We think it could be useful for you to chat to Kids Helpline as well. They are wonderul at supporting young people and are experts at all things school and family. You can call them on 1800 55 1800 or you can chat online https://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/webchat-counselling

Of course you can also call BeyondBlue on 1300 22 4636 anyime 🙂

Thank you Dejena for being a part of this community and we hope you can find support across the youth threads on the forum.

Kind regards,

Sophie M

[Here2Talk]

You had a post that disappeared? It seems like you didn’t want to talk any further but I can’t see that post. I know it all probably seems scary and impossible at the moment. Like Sophie has said above, it can be very challenging and difficult to juggle everything.

The best thing to do is find people to talk through things with and like I said, get an honest opinion - some people will just say nice things, which is a lovely thing don’t get me wrong, but it is helpful to be methodical and look at things properly.

Best of luck if I don’t hear from you again. Anyway if you want to talk again just reply to this post Dejena - the probably that I would ever be able to notice otherwise is infinitesimal. I’d be more than happy to try and problem solve with you, and there’s much more stuff we could look at.