Raising a voice

jorjy · ‎12-01-2017

I'm writing this as a referal to myself. The past few weeks, months actually have been a struggle for me to get by. I found myself lost, and i can't find my way back. These past days have really picked up, i can't sleep, i cry myself to sleep because something in my head keeps telling me that I'm worthless and that i will never be loved. I have this constant empty feeling, that shatters me; over and over. i over eat, even with no appetite. I think i have depression, and now i don't even have the energy to leave my house. But i just don't know who to tell, if i tell my mum will she truly understand what i am going through?

blondguy · ‎13-01-2017

Hi Jorjy

Welcome and good on you for having the courage to post too!

You are truly strong by posting on the forums and thankyou as well. I understand what you are going through as I used to feel the same way.

I have a daughter in her early 20's that is far from perfect (as no one is) but I do hope that she would tell me if she was going through a difficult time like you are Jorjy

Besides letting your mum know.....(I hope you can try to)....do you have a GP that you can have a chat to about what you are going through?........Just a thought...

There are many people on the forums that can be here for you. Many of us have suffered from the same situation you are in now.

I hope you can get back to us Jorjy

my kind thoughts

Paul

geoff · ‎13-01-2017

hello Jorjy, please understand that what you have told us, you mustn't feel ashamed at all, because this is how depression slowly takes control of how you feel and what you aren't able to find any comfort in what you once have done before.
So people do not want to eat, while others eat for lack of not being hungry when they are in depression, but can I ask you to do the K-10 test which you can google, but I suggest that you complete it several times of the day, and I say this because your mood of being depressed will change at different times during the day.
I would then tell your mum that you have done this depression test and each time it may have come up with a high score, this is the opening to start talking to your mum, because if she will understand then that's a great way to begin the support you need.
Ask her if she wouldn't mind going with you to see your doctor and then maybe to see a psychologist as well, and I wonder if you would like to tell us a bit more why all of sudden you are now feeling this way, that's only if you want to. Geoff.