Hi L.j.
I am so sorry you are in this situation it sounds horrible. Is there any way you can live someplace else so you don't have to interact with them? I get what you're going through to a lesser degree, my parents would rip me a new one if I wasn't all sunshine and smiles even though they never were. Coming home was a nightmare because it was constantly playing 'who will I upset today by not using a tone of voice they like'. Is there any way you can get into therapy to talk to someone about these issues? Having a confidant is helpful especially when you are having issues at home.
With the uni and the boy stuff, well uni can be hard. I would suggest making sure you do a course you are interested in because dragging yourself to classes you don't want to go to while you're depressed is so ridiculously hard. It can be done, but it is hard. If you do something you like you will be more likely to want to go so it's a bit easier. The boy, well I don't know him but what is making you think he doesn't care? When I first got with my partner I was convinced it was a prank but its been almost 8 years and we are engaged now so sometimes you need to trust people. It's scary, I know. Trusting my partner was both hard and really scary but the results can be worth it sometimes. That being said, I don't know you or him so you might need to do some thinking about this on your own.
Anyway, the reason I am telling you my life story is you sound exactly like me a few years ago. It sucks, it really, really does. In my case, it got better on the relationships/family/school front. I know, hearing 'it gets better' annoys me too because it doesn't help the right now but it might give you a little bit of hope.
Also, you definitely have someone who genuinely wants to help you now 😄 I sincerely hope you can find some info to help you on these forums.
