I had to move far away from home and my family a few years ago due to study and family issues. I also had to leave my pets behind. I understood missing my pets (I had two dogs) when I first moved but now I just feel so broken that I can't be with them anymore and that they aren't being treated as nicely anymore. I know it may sound horrible, stupid or selfish but I cry a lot not having them here or in fact any animal around. Now all I want is to buy another pet. I honestly don't care what one. I've previously had lots of different animals living with my family and I and it was awesome. I wouldn't mind even having a pet mouse or fish (which I previously have had and helped looked after). But I live with my boyfriend. Though currently we are allowed to have pets at where we are living, he thinks we won't be able to if we ever move. Which is a very fair and reasonable point. So I drop the idea of getting a pet, which feels really horrible. But I do. I distract myself. I try and stop looking on pet rescue for an animal companion. But then I just do it again. Once my boyfriend even said yes I can have a bunny. I found a bunny, met them, held them, talked to the owner about them (with my boyfriend), had done hours of research on pet rabbits and then he thought we should wait to we moved to a bigger place as was living at the time in a small unit. Now we live in a three bedroom house with a garden but I don't know if I can have a pet still.
I don't need one but I feel like I do. There has never been a time in my life where I didn't have animals to look after, play with and keep me company at home. When we first moved into the house I am living in now I was told I could have a dog after two weeks. I spent ages searching dog breeds. I now know over 100 different types of dog breeds off by heart. I spent hours looking on pound websites and gumtree. I found one which was perfect as this person was having puppies that were all four of my favourite breeds together. I thought it was meant to be because I had also grown up with each of these breeds at home. I got so excited when the puppies were born. We had discussed meeting up and prices. I got to chose which puppy. But then was told no by my boyfriend. I couldn't anymore because University would be starting soon and maybe I'll be too busy. I cried alot and then accepted it.
Now I can have a cat, but I know he will change his mind and convince me otherwise. I just don't want the heartache of not having a pet anymore
