Hi Stu-ie,
I can relate to how you feel. After Year 12 (and during too), I wasn't
myself. My OCD and general anxiety became a problem. I was diagnosed with OCD at 13, so it wasn't new to me. I also overate as a distraction and a coping mechanism.
Now that
you've been on the antidepressants for a year, you could ask your
doctor if the dose should be increased. Prior to the last month or so, did
something major happen in your life? I'm just thinking that an event or
situation could have triggered a relapse. This may not be the case though, but
it is worth considering.
Lack of sleep is so debilitating. I had insomnia a few years
ago, and sometimes I still don’t sleep properly. It’s much better now though,
as my anxiety is under control.
I suggest going back to your doctor and
explaining everything: poor sleep patterns, inadequate food intake, and anything
else that’s bothering you. Clearly your poor sleep and eating are greatly
affecting your life. If you think you are at risk of losing your job, you could
talk privately with your boss about your situation (you don’t have to
necessarily go into great detail). This way, your boss will understand that
your sluggishness is not your fault, and may cut back some of your shifts, if
this is needed for your health. It depends on your job position.
I’m sorry about your recent break-up. Right now though, it’s
best you focus on your own health. Getting yourself better is crucial. Depression
is curable, and can get better. Go to your doctor, and keep in touch with your
family and friends. If you live at home, that is great. Talk to your parents
about how you’re feeling. It’s worth it, as your parents can be a serious help
and support to you. Without my parents, I wouldn’t be happy and healthy right
now. For some people medication is long-term, and that’s okay. I have been on
the same antidepressants since I was 19 (I’m now almost 22).
Even though getting
better takes time, it is so worth it. I am so much happier now. You can do it
too 🙂
Best wishes,
SM
