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I suppose first of all, I should introduce myself. You can call me Skye, feel free to come to me if you need any help of your own, I tend to be better at sorting out other people's problems than my own. Now, onto the point.Clearly, you can already gu... View more

I suppose first of all, I should introduce myself. You can call me Skye, feel free to come to me if you need any help of your own, I tend to be better at sorting out other people's problems than my own. Now, onto the point.Clearly, you can already guess that it is I am asking of you. I thought that this might be a good place to start in trying to look for some help, and trying to find some clarity to improve my life. I suppose I should explain just what is it that is the problem then. As you can guess, it's depression, something that I have been dealing with for a long time, but has been particularly bad in the last 9 months or so. It runs in my family, so I suppose I should have expected it at some point in my lifetime.I was just wondering what all you you could suggest for me to do. I'm currently taking anti-depressants daily, my interests involve art, literature, music and animation, but none of these hobbies have been helping me at all lately, in fact, in some instances they seem to make things worse. Looking into it more closely, I'm beginning to notice that I show a lot of symptoms that are found in diagnosed patients of Asperger's. Of course, I am not doctor, and would not go as far as to diagnose myself with an illness, but it just makes me think. After all, if it were true, it would explain a lot of things.I've tried everything I can think of, reconnecting with friends and relatives, I've certainly become a lot healthier and lost a lot of weight over the past two months or so, I never use drugs or alcohol, so I'm unsure of what my next step forward should be. I'm beginning to become a little desperate.Please, if you can spare even a moment to lend me some advice, I will be most grateful. If you have any further queries, feel free to ask them, right now I'll do just about anything to feel better.Bless you all.

Starting to lose all hope

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I have been battling depression and anxiety for 10 years now. Iv done everything I can seen doctors, been on anti depressants and talked to psychologist. Last night and today by far the worst I have ever felt. I have been panicking since 11pm last ni... View more

I have been battling depression and anxiety for 10 years now. Iv done everything I can seen doctors, been on anti depressants and talked to psychologist. Last night and today by far the worst I have ever felt. I have been panicking since 11pm last night, I can't stop crying or pull myself out of bed. Mypartner doesn't even know how to deal with me right now. I just feel so completely worthless and useless, how do I get myself out of here! It's to the stage if I didn't have my beautiful dog to care for that'd be it for me. This tightness in my chest and downward spiral is really testing me today. beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

I don't know who to talk to about this

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I find it a lot easier to type my feeling than to say them in person.I feel mostly fine during the day but some days are good and some are bad, I'll have days where I feel very self confident but they never last and they only happen when I don't see ... View more

I find it a lot easier to type my feeling than to say them in person.I feel mostly fine during the day but some days are good and some are bad, I'll have days where I feel very self confident but they never last and they only happen when I don't see anyone I know. I am not nervous or afraid of strangers but I am afraid of what the people I know think of me. That said though, I can't work out at a gym because there are people who could be watching me and that makes me nervous but I can play a musical instrument in front of 1000 people quite fine. At night time I take forever to go to sleep as my mind is constantly going through situations that have happened in the past and how I felt, reminding me of what I wanted to say ten years ago but couldn't... I find myself making up scenarios of situations in the past and I end up screaming (inside my head) and wanting to rip the people in that scenario apart or rip myself apart because of how I dealt with it then.Most of the time I insult myself when I do something stupid, I'll think to myself about how I'm a f'ingloser and an idiot that has no brains, and I'm too stupid. I also never believe when people say I am not stupid and I never believe when someone says they love me. I cannot love myself and I dont believe that anyone can love me because they only see the nice side of me. They don't know the twisted thoughts and feelings I have and if they did they wouldn't love me. I just feel like nobody can understand me. Who do I talk to? I' m afraid doctors will think I'm just looking for attention and not take me serious, I can't talk to anyone either because I find it so hard to say things in person, I would keep 90% of this to myself if I was not anonymously typing to strangers. And as it is i haven't said everything here. I don't know if this is anxiety or something else? beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

Please can I have your advice?

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Hi there,I am 18 years old, and I moved to Australia from the UK with my family when I was 16. I started school a few weeks into year 12, and I struggled to make friends, and had a few issues and tiffs with some of the groups I had associated myself ... View more

Hi there,I am 18 years old, and I moved to Australia from the UK with my family when I was 16. I started school a few weeks into year 12, and I struggled to make friends, and had a few issues and tiffs with some of the groups I had associated myself with. I started to suffer social anxiety and panic attacks. Straight after school, I started a full-time job because I cant get a uni loan as I am not a citizen.After a few months of working at my current job, I started to suffer with fatigue and really bad stomach aches, which would cause me to leave work early. When I went to the doctor, I was told I had ibs, at the same time I had started to take the pill. Within weeks, my stomach aches were getting worse, but a gluten free diet helped but I also noticed a change in my mood. I went back to the doctor, and she suggested going off the pill to control my emotions but It has just gotten worse. I had always been a shy type, but it has now got to the point where I limit and avoid social interaction with my friends which has caused some arguments e.g cancelling plans at the last minute because I didn't want toget out of bed, avoid social events i.e. bbq and parties,I call in sick to work, Im often bored, I cry a lot and it doesn't take a lot to make me upset (I often over react), I always have headaches, and negative thoughts (i.e about self harming myself), and I always get stressed about work and worry about it a lot. I work in retail and deal with returns, and many customers can be rude, abusive and aggressive which makes me stressed and worried about going in, since I've had some bad experiences with it all. I would just like some advice on how to deal with my out of control emotions as it is affecting me socially and with my job. At my last appointment my doctor questioned whether I felt depressed (may be the cause of my ibs) but I couldn't admit it because my mum was there and she is unaware of how I feel and what I'm going through. I have booked another appointment for next week to talk to my doctor about how I've been feeling etc, and would also like some advice on what to say because I'm really nervous! Thanks 800x600 beyondblue’s clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636. Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE MicrosoftInternetExplorer4 /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:10.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman","serif";}

I would like to get better but unsure how to start

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Hi all, I'm brand new here I think I'm at the point where my life can't continue on this way. I've come to realise, I need major help.I get these strange swings of extreme sadness and then just a high (like when you have too much sugar). When I sink ... View more

Hi all, I'm brand new here I think I'm at the point where my life can't continue on this way. I've come to realise, I need major help.I get these strange swings of extreme sadness and then just a high (like when you have too much sugar). When I sink into the depressive episodes, I tend to tell myself that I'museless, that I'm unloveable and stupid, in general just a lot of horrible things. I cry myself to sleep because I' m so afraid of dying or people I love dying. A lot of the time, I feel like there's just this big gaping hole within me and I feel so very lonely. My mother, was not what you would call the nicest mother.I know she loves me a lot but she would threaten to throw me out of the house, to disown me , and to not recognise me as a daughter if I did not succeed in school but then she would turn around and encourage me to follow my dreams and say that it didn't matter if I fail. I'm really confused because she just says and does such contradictory things. Ever since I can remember, when I make a mistake or forget something, my mother would call me useless or say that nobody could love me. When I broke my leg, I was in so much pain and so scared but all she could do was scold me endlessly and say I was stupid and useless. Whenever we 'discuss' things like sexuality or mental health, we get into horrible fights. My parents both believe that Depression is not a real issue, that you can overcome it really easily by NOT LETTING YOURSELF GET DEPRESSED.I've often wanted to go to a councillor to just ... sort my life out but with my parents around, it's not possible. Even if I become a legal adult, I would still have to hide the fact I go to a councillor from my parents. For quite some time,I've come to accept hat I'm bisexual however I' m scared to death about both my parents finding out. They're both extremely homophobic and just, they've said that they would jump off a building or simply that "there's no way any daughter of mine would be ... you know (gay)". I feel like I have no motivation, no energy constantly and acting 'normal' is exhausting. Sometimes I get a day or a few days where everything seems alright but then my problems just come back.I really just want to get better and live my life fullybeyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

My Anxiety and Depression Experience in School

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Ever since Year 3 I have struggled with school. I hit puberty earlier and when I was about 10 I started to get acne. This eventually became severe cystic acne into my teens. So because I looked different I wasbullied quite a lot. I was even told to k... View more

Ever since Year 3 I have struggled with school. I hit puberty earlier and when I was about 10 I started to get acne. This eventually became severe cystic acne into my teens. So because I looked different I wasbullied quite a lot. I was even told to kill myself by some kids, and that was in primary school. I never had many friends in school and I never really felt like I “fit in”. All of this led to me having depression and anxiety. I was always in fear of being bullied and oral presentations were things I cried and stressed over for weeks in advance. I hated having attention put on me, I just wanted to be invisible. In 2013 (Year 10), my depression and anxiety became severe when I went on a drug for my acne treatment. I basically experienced all of the bad side effects of this medication, which led to me being taken off it after 4 months (usual course is 9 months). During the time I was on it, I rarely went to school and isolated myself from the few friends I had. If I did have to go to school, I would be crying and having a panic attack as I walked there, and same goes as I walked home. Even after I went off the drug this continued. My mum was incredibly concerned for me and did everything in her power to help me finish Year 10. She helped me with my assignments and let me take many sick days (I usually only went for exams and to hand in assignments). My mum looked for other options for me to get my QCE, as there was no way I would be able to keep going to my school.She found Brisbane School of Distance Education. It’s an online school which uses a program called Blackboard. Students and teachers communicate using text chat, microphone, webcam or telephone, depending on the school subject. This school sounded perfect for me, so we enrolled.I started at BSDE in 2014 (Year 11) and as time went on my depression diminished and my anxiety improved enormously. I even started exercising and now I do it every day! I still have mild to moderate social anxiety, but I’ve accepted that’s a part of my personality that I’m okay with. It definitely comes with being an introverted person. I got straight As the entire year at BSDE! Coming from usually doing pretty average at mainstream school. I really love school now and I feel so motivated to do my best. The BSDE teachers I had last year were amazing and I'm looking forward to Year 12 this year. I would be very happy to support others struggling with mental health issues, or answer any questions

No Motivation, Flat

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Hi, um well for so long I was able to push through things- get on with them. now im so flat I cant even find the motivation to get up. any suggestions?

Life doesnt seem worth living anymore

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hi everyone,I'm 21 and have been struggling with depression and social anxiety for 3-4 years now, I have never felt comfortable with my self in that time, every time I'm talking to so someone, even friends or family, I feel like I have nothing to say... View more

hi everyone,I'm 21 and have been struggling with depression and social anxiety for 3-4 years now, I have never felt comfortable with my self in that time, every time I'm talking to so someone, even friends or family, I feel like I have nothing to say, which really gets to me because I just want to have a conversation, or have a laugh and express myself, but most of the time I'm just saying nothing and being awkward, and when I do talk I just ask pointless questions just for the sake of saying something, and I'm constantly in my head and never present with what's going on around me. This effects me in all areas of life, in previous jobs, I get really anxious before starting work or during work, trying to figure out what I can talk about to other workers, and distracts me from actually doing my job,. Relationships with girls, same story don't know what to say, don't know how to be myself. always constantly trying to think of something to say, and never actually talking.I have been trying the last 3 years to improve on it, Putting myself out there more, talking when I don't feel like it, but my depression has really gotten to me now and haven't left the house in over 3-4 weeks, just don't see the point in trying anymore, who wants to be around someone who doesn't talk and is just depressed all the time, beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636. Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin-top:0cm; mso-para-margin-right:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0cm; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi; mso-fareast-language:EN-US;}

Depression, Anxiety... I hate my life

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Hey there, My name is Ryan. I am currently 20 years old and I'm not in a good state. A bit about myself, I love sports, exercise, working out, technology, Gaming. At least, I used to, I find myself not intested in anything these days, even stuff I wa... View more

Hey there, My name is Ryan. I am currently 20 years old and I'm not in a good state. A bit about myself, I love sports, exercise, working out, technology, Gaming. At least, I used to, I find myself not intested in anything these days, even stuff I was into my whole life..... I've never been a big social person, I've always kept to myself and I'm rather shy. I've been bullied most of my schooling life, I do not understand why... Probably the way I reacted to bullies that made them do it more.... I was bullied constantly from Grade 1 up until Grade 7, mainly verbal but physical when it was larger groups. I changed schools twice and it still happened... I must be an easy target... In year 7, it finally stopped... I was bigger than the bully and one day I completely snapped and beat 2 of them to the point one of them had to go to the hospital and have stitches. I received 2 weeks in-door suspension, where I was in the School Office and did work there. The bullies, not even touched... My parents were frustrated with the school and how they got away with it... I thought it would change with Highschool. All was good up until Grade 10, it started again... Pretty much all verbal with the occasional pushing / shoving... Being a Private School, I wasn't expecting this to happen again but it did. I spent time with the Principle and School Councilor to try and sort it out... One kid got expelled but the others were still there, up until year 12. At the start of year 12, my friends ditched me... I do not know why, we were good friends and had the same interests... I spent my year 12 alone and depressed and it ended up effecting my final ATAR... The bullying wasn't the only thing that made me depressed... Games by girls that completely ruined my trust for females... Year 10, it was a school camp and I had a crush on a girl. Everybody knew it and they decided to play me. Leading me on for days up until I asked her out, only to be rejected and find everybody laughing behind some bushes... She was in on it too. Year 11, another girl I got along with really well... She was new to the school. We had a date planned but the day before she went to a party and got with some other guys, completely breaking my heart... I am rather sensitive. I am running out of characters here but this is only a part of my story. I am alone, depressed, anxious and work at a Supermarket, which I hate might I add... I have no life ambitions and all I do is sit at my computer all the time...

if u ever feel depressed...

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if u ever feel down or upset..feel worthless or not good enough remember to the world you are one person and to one person you are the world..theres someone out there for you..theyre just waiting for the right moment to claim you as there own! your a... View more

if u ever feel down or upset..feel worthless or not good enough remember to the world you are one person and to one person you are the world..theres someone out there for you..theyre just waiting for the right moment to claim you as there own! your all beautiful and good enough just remember that too! hope this helps anyone who feeels down x

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