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I think I make my aniexty worse

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So for the last month or so, I feel like I'm having a lot of social anxiety.Feeling lonely and isolated I got invited to a party for work (I work as a casual for McDonalds). I originally said I wouldn't go. I felt like going would make me feel terrib... View more

So for the last month or so, I feel like I'm having a lot of social anxiety.Feeling lonely and isolated I got invited to a party for work (I work as a casual for McDonalds). I originally said I wouldn't go. I felt like going would make me feel terrible as I would be left alone at the party, but then I decided "Why not?" and told them I would come. Anyway the day of the party arrives, It started at 6:00 and was going to run until 10:00pm, I enter and discover there is not ONE person I know there. So I sat on my own for a while. Soon some people I knew turned and I went and sat them. I didn't make conversation because they were talking with each other I didn't want to interrupt them. Then I just started to feel uncomfortable, this is the first time I have ever been to a party on my own. I just couldn't stop shaking or checking the clock. By about 7:15 I gave up, I told one of the guys I was leaving and just walked out I now regret ever going. I wish I didn't change my mind. I feel like my attempts to "leave the comfort zone" or "take the plunge" are disasters waiting to happen. Same thing happened when I auditioned for a community play, I made mistakes and felt like I was annoying the entire cast and crew, I then quit the play with 5 days until opening night Also sharing my creative artworks, one them got gratified. I know feel like I was just want to hide myself from the world out of fear I will embarrass myself or look stupid. I don't know what to do. I feel like if I try to fix anything by myself...it just goes wrong. I just don't feel like I will ever fit in or belong. I just feel like I'm a weird outcast......

I think i have depression, but i'm not sure.. Help!!

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Okay so i don't know if its depression for sure but i always have anxiety attacks and can't breathe, my heart always goes really fast! i couldn't sleep the other day as i was having an anxiety attack so i checked my heart and it was going 153bpm! i c... View more

Okay so i don't know if its depression for sure but i always have anxiety attacks and can't breathe, my heart always goes really fast! i couldn't sleep the other day as i was having an anxiety attack so i checked my heart and it was going 153bpm! i cry at random times or when i'm really lonely. Sometimes i think life isn't worth living anymore but then sometimes i can't wait to explore life and i'm blessed to be here. I stress about school alot and i just started year 12 and i also do dancing and my mum and dad don't think i can make it as a career so its been stressing me out.. i'm so confused

Will this road end?

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I don't really like talking about my problems, but here goes anyway...Im 18 and just finished school, the past like 3 years have been weird for me. I've woken up every morning with no real purpose, nothing to look forward to, the feeling of bing usel... View more

I don't really like talking about my problems, but here goes anyway...Im 18 and just finished school, the past like 3 years have been weird for me. I've woken up every morning with no real purpose, nothing to look forward to, the feeling of bing useless.I havnt got a job, though I'm trying to work that out.Got a bad ATAR score, should still get me into uni though.Have never had a proper girlfriend, and this really bugs me for some reason. Not that I didn't have the chance, I either passed or stuffed up somehow.Like just recently this girl that I've always liked and is a friend I completelyargued with her just so I wouldn't need to talk to her and be a 'friend'. I've really never understood, how the most blokes get good looking girlfriends. i feel as though if I had a girlfriend everything would be so much better, which probably isn't the case. There's some underlying issue here that I just want to deal with. Will things change? it's not like I'm socially awkward or anything. I feel like dieing wouldn't be such a bad thing, but have never really consideredsuicide, would effect far too many people around me. Like suicide or something wouldn't be so bad. Ive seriously considered joining the army, that way I won't feel souseless and pathetic. But I'd rather things just change. this is so pathetic, any advice would be appreciated.beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

Unsure

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Hey, So recently I was told I had clinical depression, this was after ending up in the ed department after a attempt at suicide. My main worry at the moment is not so much thethought of suicide or self harm ect but more my anxiety levels with the bf ... View more

Hey, So recently I was told I had clinical depression, this was after ending up in the ed department after a attempt at suicide. My main worry at the moment is not so much thethought of suicide or self harm ect but more my anxiety levels with the bf and the struggles with work. Ive recently become extremely worried that everything the boyfriend is a lie. More to do with women and drinking. While i have voiced these concerns with him i still dont feel any more at ease and i feel like im driving a wedge between us by forever asking questions that show i doubt him. It has been a long road for us with him seeking attention from other women as i apprently didnt make him feel good and i think a lot of my doubt stems from that. He mostly did this when he was drinking (his in the army kind of hard not to drink) He is a very needy person emotionally and obviously been diagnosed with clinical depression doesnt help this situation as i cant give him the attention i used to be able to. Which makes me even more worried. i dont know how to deal with these emotions and find myself just distancing myself from him more and more to avoid getting hurt again. While this isnt what i want i cant help but do it. His promised to stop drinking and told me he doesnt need other women to help fill the void but im just left wondering how long this is going to last and just find myself waiting for him to revert back to his old ways. His only said all this after the "incident" so i dont know if his just saying it because he thinks ill go off the rails or if he really means it. So unsure of everything right now! beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636

Feeling lost..

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I wrote here back when I was 17 & struggling with what I thought would have faded away forever once I found my feet. I'm 21 now. It's been a complete UP & DOWN roller coaster from that year till now. The last year & a half has by far been the most di... View more

I wrote here back when I was 17 & struggling with what I thought would have faded away forever once I found my feet. I'm 21 now. It's been a complete UP & DOWN roller coaster from that year till now. The last year & a half has by far been the most difficult year with my depression battle... So here goes: In late 2013, I was working at a job I really loved but wasn't achieving what I wanted or needed to progress in my apprenticeship. There was some unfair treatment going on at that workplace almost everyday. The more days that passed where I didn't get given an opportunity to grow while others did the more I started to believe I wasn't very good enough. While that was happening, things with my boyfriend weren't the best. We had a break for a few weeks & when my birthday came he surprised me with some gifts & a card. We ended up cuddling for quite a while, didn't think anything of it. A few days after, he sent me a long message saying we needed to break up. I was absolutely devastated. I knew if that was the end of the relationship, I knew even if I wanted to, being friends just wasn't an option. This guy was my first love. Anyway, a very long story short. Feb last year we started seeing each other again & last Oct a night after my birthday at my 21st birthday party, he asked me to be his girlfriend again. I've got my main supporter back & we're stronger than ever. That aside. I ended up leaving that job last June. I was halfway through my 2nd year & wasn't being allowed to do things I should have already been in my 1st!!! Ever since, I have TROUBLE finding work. I did a short course in Oct & applied for a job, they fired me after a month saying I didn't have experience... Which I already told them I was new to that field... I've been unemployed since Nov & it's tearing me & my family apart. I'm desperate for work. I've tried everything!!! Even jobs I never wanted to try. I can't support my family nor myself. My father calls me names & refuses to buy food & goes to eat at his partners. My 'best friend' has barely been one. I'm there in a heart beat for her even though I'm without a license. She has a license & car, hasn't even visited or contacted to see how I am. Last time we caught up, I helped her through something. It's been 2 weeks & she hasn't even made an effort to see me. Yet, she has been seeing her bf & 2 other friends? It's so painful.. No job. No money. Disloyal friends.. Everyday my thoughts get darker & I get buried deeper.. I need help..

I don't know what's wrong with me

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Depression runs on my mother's side of the family, so I should have guessed that at some point I'd start suffering from it. The past 9 months have been rough, sure, but it's the next 9 months that I'm most worried about. I'm just really unsure what t... View more

Depression runs on my mother's side of the family, so I should have guessed that at some point I'd start suffering from it. The past 9 months have been rough, sure, but it's the next 9 months that I'm most worried about. I'm just really unsure what to do anymore. I'm fourteen years old, and I have a fairly average lifestyle. I eat healthily (I'm vegetarian, also), I am interested in art, literature and music, and I have been recently trying to reconnect with my friends and not isolate myself like I did several months ago. I'm currently taking anti-depressants daily, but I'm not seeing a counselor. The last one didn't seem to understand me, she acted like nothing was wrong. My doctor diagnosed me with depression and generalized anxiety, but after conducting some research of my own, I've found that I share a lot of symptoms found in sufferers of Asperger's syndrome. Of course, I'm not doctor, so I can't be sure, but it would honestly make a lot of sense. If anyone has any advice, I would be most grateful. BecauseI just don' t know what to do anymore.

Help

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I suppose first of all, I should introduce myself. You can call me Skye, feel free to come to me if you need any help of your own, I tend to be better at sorting out other people's problems than my own. Now, onto the point.Clearly, you can already gu... View more

I suppose first of all, I should introduce myself. You can call me Skye, feel free to come to me if you need any help of your own, I tend to be better at sorting out other people's problems than my own. Now, onto the point.Clearly, you can already guess that it is I am asking of you. I thought that this might be a good place to start in trying to look for some help, and trying to find some clarity to improve my life. I suppose I should explain just what is it that is the problem then. As you can guess, it's depression, something that I have been dealing with for a long time, but has been particularly bad in the last 9 months or so. It runs in my family, so I suppose I should have expected it at some point in my lifetime.I was just wondering what all you you could suggest for me to do. I'm currently taking anti-depressants daily, my interests involve art, literature, music and animation, but none of these hobbies have been helping me at all lately, in fact, in some instances they seem to make things worse. Looking into it more closely, I'm beginning to notice that I show a lot of symptoms that are found in diagnosed patients of Asperger's. Of course, I am not doctor, and would not go as far as to diagnose myself with an illness, but it just makes me think. After all, if it were true, it would explain a lot of things.I've tried everything I can think of, reconnecting with friends and relatives, I've certainly become a lot healthier and lost a lot of weight over the past two months or so, I never use drugs or alcohol, so I'm unsure of what my next step forward should be. I'm beginning to become a little desperate.Please, if you can spare even a moment to lend me some advice, I will be most grateful. If you have any further queries, feel free to ask them, right now I'll do just about anything to feel better.Bless you all.

Starting to lose all hope

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I have been battling depression and anxiety for 10 years now. Iv done everything I can seen doctors, been on anti depressants and talked to psychologist. Last night and today by far the worst I have ever felt. I have been panicking since 11pm last ni... View more

I have been battling depression and anxiety for 10 years now. Iv done everything I can seen doctors, been on anti depressants and talked to psychologist. Last night and today by far the worst I have ever felt. I have been panicking since 11pm last night, I can't stop crying or pull myself out of bed. Mypartner doesn't even know how to deal with me right now. I just feel so completely worthless and useless, how do I get myself out of here! It's to the stage if I didn't have my beautiful dog to care for that'd be it for me. This tightness in my chest and downward spiral is really testing me today. beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

I don't know who to talk to about this

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I find it a lot easier to type my feeling than to say them in person.I feel mostly fine during the day but some days are good and some are bad, I'll have days where I feel very self confident but they never last and they only happen when I don't see ... View more

I find it a lot easier to type my feeling than to say them in person.I feel mostly fine during the day but some days are good and some are bad, I'll have days where I feel very self confident but they never last and they only happen when I don't see anyone I know. I am not nervous or afraid of strangers but I am afraid of what the people I know think of me. That said though, I can't work out at a gym because there are people who could be watching me and that makes me nervous but I can play a musical instrument in front of 1000 people quite fine. At night time I take forever to go to sleep as my mind is constantly going through situations that have happened in the past and how I felt, reminding me of what I wanted to say ten years ago but couldn't... I find myself making up scenarios of situations in the past and I end up screaming (inside my head) and wanting to rip the people in that scenario apart or rip myself apart because of how I dealt with it then.Most of the time I insult myself when I do something stupid, I'll think to myself about how I'm a f'ingloser and an idiot that has no brains, and I'm too stupid. I also never believe when people say I am not stupid and I never believe when someone says they love me. I cannot love myself and I dont believe that anyone can love me because they only see the nice side of me. They don't know the twisted thoughts and feelings I have and if they did they wouldn't love me. I just feel like nobody can understand me. Who do I talk to? I' m afraid doctors will think I'm just looking for attention and not take me serious, I can't talk to anyone either because I find it so hard to say things in person, I would keep 90% of this to myself if I was not anonymously typing to strangers. And as it is i haven't said everything here. I don't know if this is anxiety or something else? beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.

Please can I have your advice?

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Hi there,I am 18 years old, and I moved to Australia from the UK with my family when I was 16. I started school a few weeks into year 12, and I struggled to make friends, and had a few issues and tiffs with some of the groups I had associated myself ... View more

Hi there,I am 18 years old, and I moved to Australia from the UK with my family when I was 16. I started school a few weeks into year 12, and I struggled to make friends, and had a few issues and tiffs with some of the groups I had associated myself with. I started to suffer social anxiety and panic attacks. Straight after school, I started a full-time job because I cant get a uni loan as I am not a citizen.After a few months of working at my current job, I started to suffer with fatigue and really bad stomach aches, which would cause me to leave work early. When I went to the doctor, I was told I had ibs, at the same time I had started to take the pill. Within weeks, my stomach aches were getting worse, but a gluten free diet helped but I also noticed a change in my mood. I went back to the doctor, and she suggested going off the pill to control my emotions but It has just gotten worse. I had always been a shy type, but it has now got to the point where I limit and avoid social interaction with my friends which has caused some arguments e.g cancelling plans at the last minute because I didn't want toget out of bed, avoid social events i.e. bbq and parties,I call in sick to work, Im often bored, I cry a lot and it doesn't take a lot to make me upset (I often over react), I always have headaches, and negative thoughts (i.e about self harming myself), and I always get stressed about work and worry about it a lot. I work in retail and deal with returns, and many customers can be rude, abusive and aggressive which makes me stressed and worried about going in, since I've had some bad experiences with it all. I would just like some advice on how to deal with my out of control emotions as it is affecting me socially and with my job. At my last appointment my doctor questioned whether I felt depressed (may be the cause of my ibs) but I couldn't admit it because my mum was there and she is unaware of how I feel and what I'm going through. I have booked another appointment for next week to talk to my doctor about how I've been feeling etc, and would also like some advice on what to say because I'm really nervous! Thanks 800x600 beyondblue’s clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636. Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE MicrosoftInternetExplorer4 /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-priority:99; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; mso-para-margin:0cm; mso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:10.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman","serif";}

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