I dont know who i am anymore

[Unicorndogge]

Lately i just feel like i am getting dragged along not doing anything useful. The thing is i am pretty much useless, my anxiety is bad i cant even do what most other people can do my age and now i just have no motivation to learn because i know i will stuff it up or not go anywhere with it. I dont have a job, i dont study anymore and now that i am living with my nan its like i feel trapped even though i was in a worse position at home with my dad smoking weed with most of my inheritance money. I don't know what i am good at, liking something is not enough anymore because i know that i will be alone forever.

[Unicorndogge]

I feel like just telling him how I feel. I am scared he won’t like it but I need to tell the truth. Because I won’t usually write a poem and do drawing for someone unless I really liked them. He won’t like this but it’s something I should do since I need to express myself and it’s like I am holding it in. He has a girlfriend already😓 but i still have these stuipd feelings

[Guest_4643]

Hey Unicorndogge.

I'm sure he does like you, if you're good friends then that says something! Your drawing is beautiful, trust me. Doesn't matter how long it took you to draw it, and it is impressive.

I'd never hate you, and no one's lying to you, I'm not and I'm sure he isn't either.

You can tell him how you feel if you feel comfortable, he may have feelings for you too, that would be cute.

Oh that's a shame he has a girlfriend, I guess you could still say you have feelings for him to get it off your chest.

[Tay100]

Hi Unicorndogge

I'm sorry to hear that you are having a rough time over this guy- he sounds like he means a lot to you and it's sad when we can't be with them, whatever way that may be! Have you had anyone in your life who's gone through a similar thing? Maybe you could talk with them? Or even with him, if that would give you some kind of release? It may help provide a catalyst for you moving foward.

Tay100

[Unicorndogge]

Hi mblover

I told him😭 and he said it was okay and he still wants to be friends. It went better then i fought but i am still so upset after all he lives so far away and has girlfriend.😭 maybe its because i am not used to someone being so nice to me like no one has kept talking to me for almost 10 months whether in person or online. He is the only person. I guess now he knows i love him😓 but still i feel like a failure

[Unicorndogge]

Hey tay

I dont think i can talk to him for a while these feelings wont go away unless i give space. 😭 he knows now so at least thats a reason

[Guest_4643]

Hey Unicorndogge, you can call me Tayla also since that's my name, if you wish.

I'm sorry he has a girlfriend, but I'm proud of you for telling him how you feel, that would've taken a lot of courage and I commend you for it, well done. Don't feel bad, you got it off your chest and that's what you needed to do.

You have me and everybody here, but I know it's different with this guy. You're not a failure at all, I promise you.

[Tay100]

Hi Unicorndogge

It's good that you have made a decision, hopefully some healthy space will help you heal and improve your mood. How do you feel knowing that he knows how you feel about him? Do you think some distance will hopefully help you cope with that?

Tay100

[Unicorndogge]

😭 i feel so alone, i sort of wish that he could love me back but that would be selfish. At least he wanted to be friends with me still. I am starting work on wed but i am nervous hopefully it will help😭

[Unicorndogge]

Well i have decided to keep talking to him because after all he is my only friend😭

I just wish he lived closer or something😓😭

[Guest_4643]

It's not selfish at all Unicorndogge. Good luck with your work on Wednesday.

We're your friends here