I dont know who i am anymore

[Unicorndogge]

Lately i just feel like i am getting dragged along not doing anything useful. The thing is i am pretty much useless, my anxiety is bad i cant even do what most other people can do my age and now i just have no motivation to learn because i know i will stuff it up or not go anywhere with it. I dont have a job, i dont study anymore and now that i am living with my nan its like i feel trapped even though i was in a worse position at home with my dad smoking weed with most of my inheritance money. I don't know what i am good at, liking something is not enough anymore because i know that i will be alone forever.

[Guest_4643]

That's not true Unicorndogge.

Maybe you could ask if you could do other things there, if you feel like you want to work there? No pressure, just a friendly suggestion.

[Tay100]

Hi Unicorndogge

I agree with mb20lover- you can do things right and deserve a chance to work there if that's what you wish. You could try and ask about a traineeship or other junior roles if you like as mb20lover said, or even get them to recommend you another similar role in another company? Let us know what you end up doing if you like.

Tay100

[Unicorndogge]

No one to talk to😭

[Guest_4643]

We're here for you, Unicorndogge

[therising]

Hi Unicorndogge

Talk and vent as much as you need to. This is a really tough time for you, too tough not to be talking it out with someone. Here to listen.

🙂

[Tay100]

Hi Unicorndogge

I'm sorry that you are in such a rough headspace- please know we are here to listen if you'd to discuss anything at all. If you feel you need more structured help you can also make use of other Beyond Blue counselling services also. Be kind to yourself, we are here when you are ready.

Tay100

[Guest_4643]

Hey Unicorndogge, no pressure to check in. We just want to know that you're safe and ok. Take care, we're all here for you.

[Unicorndogge]

I just finished my drawing of my penpal. But even though he likes it, i still dont think its good enough😭 i stuffed it up. I took all that effort and its just not impressive. I know i am an perfectionist but his like my only friend. 😭 he says it amazing and thats not good enough for me why?

Do i have feelings for him? I love the way he talks to me, i love how interesting he is, i love how kind and sweet he is, i love how patient he is, i love how supportive he is

This cant be real

This is wrong

But i love him❤️

😭 all this time talking even tho i dont know him in real life i have feelings for him. Then i keep thinking about him and it just hurts

I want this to stop

I dont want any feelings

[Guest_4643]

Hey Unicorndogge, it's lovely to hear from you. I've been thinking of you and I've been worried (don't apologise, I'm just a caring person, well I try to be).

Your drawing is AMAZING, it looks lifelike. I'm glad you took some time to yourself to draw a portrait of him, that's very sweet, and sounds like it was a bit of self care for you. I'm sure he would LOVE it, I know I do! Like WOW!

You didn't stuff anything up, in the drawing or in general, I promise you. I'm your friend, I wish I could talk to you in person and whatnot, but I'm your friend here, always. Nothing will change that. I'm glad you found your Penpal too, that's sweet and I'm happy for you.

Aw how cute that you think you have feelings for him, maybe he has feelings for you too? How adorable.

It's not wrong to have feelings for him, he sounds like a nice guy, so don't feel bad about that.

I'm here for you, always. I hope you're ok. Love and hugs, Unicorndogge.

[Unicorndogge]

Hi mb20lover

He doesnt like me at all😭

My drawing isnt good enough

I must start again

I took too long😭

It wasnt impressive

I am so sorry dont hate me😭

He is lying to me everyone does