I can' t do this anymore.

[Violet_hope]

Someone

please help me. I've never been diagnosed with depression before but I'm just so sad all the time. I'm a 16 year old who has entered year 11 recently. I just can't deal with the stress of everything. I have no clue what I'm going to do when I finish school and it scares me so much. I just don't see the point? I just wish I could leave this world and enter a fantasy world. I watch movies and tv shows and play video games and  I just wish I could live there. In that world. I wish I could be apart of the cute little communities in there little town In a cartoon world. where it's so care free and everyone knows everyone and they're happy, or be a princess in a fantasy world! It's so ridiculous I no. But just thinking about those worlds and then zoning back into this reality makes me burst into tears and leaves me spiralling back into a black hole. I hate this society. It's full of war and hate and judgemental people. Please just get me out of here. I've felt like this for atleast two years now and I wish I could enjoy life again. 

[AGrace]

Hi Violet,

Thank you for being brave enough to reach out to us here at Beyondblue, and welcome to the community.

Being a teenager with so many decisions ahead of you can be a challenge, and more so if you're already feeling quite sensitive. My mental illness started when I was 15, and I couldn't even think about school work because I thought "I've got bigger problems than this". I can recall how scary it was, not knowing who to tell, or how to seek help. You've taken the first step by posting here, and the first step is usually the hardest.

I have a few questions for you, I hope

I don't overwhelm you. Is the sadness and caused by anything particular? Are you able to speak to an adult regarding your troubles? (Mum, Dad, a Student Counsellor, a Sibling or other Relative) It's important that you can share your burdens, and a trusted adult will be able to give you guidance. If you're not able to chat with anyone in particular then I'd suggest the next step would be to contact Beyondblue via the phone line or webchat. The trained professionals will be able to give you support in taking the next step.

Effectively the next step would be to see your GP. You can do this on your own if that is the only option. There's a list of GPs on BB homepage. Follow the below link and on the right side of the screen select "Find a Health Professional". These GPs are trained in dealing with mental health. When making the appointment also find out if the Dr Bulk Bills so that you are not out of pocket. You will need your medicare card to attend.

http://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/who-can-assist

I know it would be great to pick another world to live in, I often read books and think I wish I was that character. Unfortunately this is the only world we have, so we have to do what we can to make our personal lives positive ones. You are right there is a lot of devastation in the world, but there is also a lot of good. Beyondblue and the people on the forums are the perfect example of this. Are you participating in any extra curricular activities at the moment? Sport, hobbies, or interests? These can be a really good distraction even when you don't really feel like doing them. You also don't need to know now exactly what you want to do with your life. Speaking to a careers counsellor through school might give you some options. 

I hope you will get back to us with you're decision, and feel free to vent or ask us questions. We are here to listen and support you.

AGrace

[MaeM]

Hi Violet.Hope,
I am in the same position as you. You are not alone! If you are prone to random freak outs in the middle of class itd be wise to discuss with your year advisor or school counsellor about (Im not sure if your school has this) a welfare room? Perhaps even just a place to go while you freak out. Maybe even be provided with a time out card. Im not sure what options are at your school but that is what I use. Bit of time out to calm down and breathe. My teachers are aware of the situation and allow me to leave class when I am feeling anxious or depressed, I also have what we call a time out card which I hand to teachers if they don't know the situation or if I don't want to talk. I take myself to the welfare room and have some alone time however recently I have been sitting out in the sun. I find it more helpful than a stuffy room.

[geoff]

dear Violet, I would like to thank you so much for approaching us because at the moment life is so scary and full of impossible dreams.

I get really upset when adolescents suffer from depression and uncertainty, as I do with adults, because it puts a damper on their life.

Being in year 11 there is so much pressure put onto you, with family, friends all harassing you to achieve a good result, but it's this that isn't necessarily the ideal option, because your health is much more important than having 3 or 4 Phd's, as this has been shown that many brilliant scholars have acquired these results, but are struck down by depression, so to them it all means nothing.

To live in the 'chocolate factory' what a treat that would be, but we can always imagine being there, but at the moment this won't help you cope with what you struggling with.

Can I ask you a question and please only answer if you wise to, has something happened to one of your friends at school.

This can be a difficult question to answer, as your post has a great deal of depth to it.

I truly hope that you can reply to us, or if you are allowed to contact this site at home, because this maybe another concern for you. Geoff.