I am an idiot with psychosis.

[Roses_191]

I really hate that im brain dead, today I tried to take my mum to a class and I got in the buss as usual but then I had to go to a stop that I didnt know and when i put the gps to get there i couldnt understand it and we ended up going home and my mum is so mad and said me and dad are brain dead and im so fed up with my life im always in problems alot probably more than everyone else i even have psychosis so this bloody life is just unfair I have to endure all these problems and I really cant be alone, i have no smartness to be independant whats so so ever and no street smartness I am clumsy i trip all the time, and Im too quiet according to everyone, and family say im demonically posssed and i struggle to retain information even in conversations so im stuffed.

[Roses_191]

Thankyou for replying! I can handle the time on my own, a guidance officer checked on me once but since she is siding with the school to kick me out, i think she dosen't want to see me because of that as she hasnt checkes on me in weeks. I usually have a clinician that calls me that checks up on me once a month.

[ViolettaZ]

Hi Roses,

I’m really glad to hear that you’re able to manage your time on your own. That actually takes a lot of strength.

I’m sorry to hear that the guidance officer hasn’t been able to support you the way you deserve. If you’re comfortable sharing, do you know why the guidance officer wants you to leave the school?

How are you feeling about the possibility of leaving? Does your school have a social worker? If they do, do they know what’s been happening with you? Sometimes a social worker can advocate for you if you don’t want to leave school, or help connect you with the services you might need.

I’m really glad you have a clinician who checks in with you regularly. It’s good that you still have someone supporting you.

Warm regards🤗

ViolettaZ

[Roses_191]

1. I need to do that test before getting the learners for driving,  but ive just not done it because lifes been hectic I dont even have a timetable im like a mess and now im gonna have that regret with me for the rest of my life. If someone asks how long did it take you to get your license? Or why do you not have your license? Im gonna feel so embarrassed. Ive been studying that test for a year! 😭 I can’t even drive yet! helpp i have no problems with motivation like I can do it I think its that fact that I spend too long on tasks.. helpp im a visual learner and I have like no good excuse as to why im avoiding the work too.

[Roses_191]

The guidance officer wants me to leave as they think I need too much help, and will put their business down. She said that the school has decided to kick me out because they think that Im succseeding because of their help and that I csn do well with their help, but if I go to get a job and boss sees that I have the qualficiation from my school and sees I cant do the work then they will ask me who I trained me and If I say the school I will put the school down. Im feeling very stressed about the possibility of leaving as its got the whole family worried and its my only chance to fix my life as I wagged school for a whole year because I heard the voices everywhere and got bullied by them thinking it was everyone else at school bullying me as I heard many bad things said to me behind my back but when i turned their mouths didnt move or they didnt look like they said what they said. My schoop has a sociap worker but he is a male and I dont feel comfortable with him as he kept suggesting that once he moves our office we could have more privacy there multiple times. I found that dogy and mum thinks he wants to do something bad to me there.

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Roses,

It took me a while to learn the driving instructions book…back in my day, their were no computers that we could test ourselves on….My son also had a hard time to remember all the answers to the questions…I know he went online and took practice tests a lot…took him a while but he passed it….more then a year if I can remember..

I found for me, that asking myself the questions then writing the answers out on a piece of paper stuck more in my brain, then just constantly reading them….Do you have someone that could ask you the questions so you can write out the answers in a sheet of paper…Do you think that might make it a bit easier to remember….

Roses, sweetheart…everyone learns at a different pace, it doesn’t matter how long it takes you to get your licence, your doing the best you can…and that’s good enough….Please don’t concern yourself about what other people think or say….if they are real  friends, they would want to help support you…

Kind thoughts Dear Roses..

Grandy..

[ViolettaZ]

Hi Roses,

Sorry for the late reply.

I’m really sorry to hear that you’re going through such a difficult and frustrating situation. It sounds like a lot to deal with, and it’s completely understandable that you’re feeling stressed.

About the social worker, if you feel uncomfortable talking to him, that’s completely okay. You should only speak with someone you feel safe and comfortable with.

A few days have passed now,has anything changed or progressed with the situation?

I was also wondering if you might consider trying Kids Helpline. It’s a free service for young people aged 5–25, and you can talk to them about what’s going on and get some support. You could ask them what kinds of services might suit your situation, or whether they could refer you to another organisation that might be able to help as well.

Take care, and I hope things start to improve for you.

Warm regards🤗

ViolettaZ

[Roses_191]

I havent had the meeting with the school yet so I'm not sure about whats happening with the situation but thankyou for replying.

[ViolettaZ]

Hi roses,

Feel free to come back and share any further progress.

Warm regards, 🤗

ViolettaZ

[Roses_191]

My mum told me ever since ive had psychosis I've have this flat mood and she says i ruin the mood for everyone. Does this happen to you guys? She told me I can't unsee it and she told me that I put myself down alot. Does anyone have any advice or reccomendations about how I can change this? I don't have any anxiety I just became like this as a result of psychosis. 

[Roses_191]

My mum told me ever since ive had psychosis I have this flat mood and she says i ruin the mood for everyone. Does this happen to you guys? She told me I can't unsee it and she told me that I put myself down alot. Does anyone have any advice or reccomendations about how I can change this?