I am an idiot with psychosis.

[Roses_191]

I really hate that im brain dead, today I tried to take my mum to a class and I got in the buss as usual but then I had to go to a stop that I didnt know and when i put the gps to get there i couldnt understand it and we ended up going home and my mum is so mad and said me and dad are brain dead and im so fed up with my life im always in problems alot probably more than everyone else i even have psychosis so this bloody life is just unfair I have to endure all these problems and I really cant be alone, i have no smartness to be independant whats so so ever and no street smartness I am clumsy i trip all the time, and Im too quiet according to everyone, and family say im demonically posssed and i struggle to retain information even in conversations so im stuffed.

[white knight]

Hi, welcome 

Bad moods can be for several reasons. Eg

• The illness eg bipolar, depression
• Medication
• Lack of sleep
• Stress
• Life drama from family or friends
• Homelike
• Pressure from work or study
• Other reasons

I have bipolar so moods are part of the illness however I have minimalists it greatly by fine tuning my life- got rid of the people that like drama and conflict, taken up interests and worked toward financial security.

I also think most humans have little empathy for us because they cant see the illness. If you broke your leg and in a wheelchair you'd get more understanding.  Poor mood is often normal for us, its how it is, but as review of meds is a good idea because many meds help us in major ways but side effects cause tiredness and moods.

What your mum might miss is the bubbly person in you they once knew. So I also suggest proactive ideas like attending a comedy movie, a stand up comedian or fun friends. If you dont keep yourself busy you'll dwell on negative things.

I hope that helps.

TonyWK 

[audiology]

Hi there - first of all as much as she means well, your mum isn't a trained medical professional and unable to diagnose you with anything, and as such I find a lot of the things she says to be inappropriate. My advice would be to book in and see your GP and discuss absolutel everyting. 

[Croix]

Dear Roses_191~

Knowing you have been diagnosed with psychosis will naturally have an effect on you, worry about the effects and your ablities can make you seem down. I hope oyur recent success in maths has helped dispel this feelng and you can see the worth in yourself, after all it is a pretty good effort.

Looking for the victories in your life, no matter how big or small, and the way you have coped with the hard things in your life may make you feel better about yourself and not put yourself down - after all you do not need to do this, you are a capable person. If you tend to forget the good things you accomplish keep a diary and jot them down. I was like this but kept a diary, I was surprised how quickly they mounted up.

I'm sorry your mother made that comment, and think it was a thoughtless thing to say -it can only make you feel guilty, which you do not deserve. OK if you are down other people may sense this, however if they love you they will understand and simply want you to feel better.

So please disregard what she said  and maybe go so far as to tell her, in a gentle way, that it does not help to make comments like that, after all they seem to be based upon  the idea you have a choice and are being flat deliberately, which is nonsense.

Croix

[Roses_191]

Hi guys I just had a horrible afternoon yesterday 😭. I got my influenza vaccine, a specific type of Flu vax unkowingly thinking it was the seasonal flu vaccine that gets produced using chicken eggs. I went in to the room to get my shot as the first person, as my mum said I was gonna get the seasonal flu vaccine that I usually get. Turns out that when it was my mums turn, to get her shot she asked about what shots they were giving out, and they told her it was the flu vax that has dog cells in it. My mum was very shocked and she had a big reaction because this goes against our relgious beliefs, because we're not allowed to have pork or dogs in our bodies. And I probably should've asked the nurse what shot I was taking to double check, but I just assume it was the one I was always getting. I went shopping after this as I had to buy some things that I needed and I started to cry because I was very upset about it as I thought this would end my faith and I wouldnt be able to believe in God because I took something that was against the bible. Mum told me that God wasn't going to leave me as I was innocent. So yeah this was really stressful and now I have these dog cells in me for the next 12 months 😡 and last year they also put a vaccine that has pork in it on mum and me, when we just wanted that seasonal flue vaccine that we always get. No wonder why I was getting sharp pains constantly at that time 😡 👎

[Croix]

Dear Roses_191~

I'd like to welcome you here and hope that you may find some comfort. 

Firstly I think - though I am not a student or leader in religion - that introducing something unintentionally may have differing effects on the body and the mind. If you had an existing allergy - for example to shellfish- and you ate shellfish then one would expect your body to react. I do not suppose this is the case here.

With you religious beliefs this incident may have caused you and your mum great distress however there is a big difference in receiving something you did not expect and deliberately seeking it out. It is very unfortunate that you were given a medication containing material contrary to you beliefs, however you cannot reasonably be expected to have the knowledge of a pharmacist.

For the sharp pains can I suggest you see your GP and discuss them with him?

May I also suggest you take this matter to your local religious leader and get a definitive answer if you have any level of responsibility and what actions, if any, you should undertake.

Naturally after this upsetting episode I think it might be prudent to inquire about the makeup of future inoculations.

I hope this helps

Croix

[audiology]

While I completely understand your level of upset - I would at the same time also feel pretty confident in saying that it's really nothing to worry about. Given that the majority of religeous beliefs pracice love, forgiveness & acceptance above all else - I dare say given the exact circumstances of your situation everything should be fine. I mean it's not like you actively went out 'seeking' to 'sin' - correct? Also it might be best to speak to your GP to confirm but I very much doubt your religious beliefs are the reason why you were getting any of the sharp pains you descirbed. 

[Roses_191]

I accidantly dumped my pencil case in the toilet! 😡 Mum called me an idiot! 😡 This is the wrost day ever! 😡

[Psychdiaries2]

Hi there,

Oh, I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough day. Have you been able to chat with your mum? You seem pretty upset which is totally fair, but I'm wondering if you have told your mum that? 

Hope things go well and reply anytime you want,

PsychDiaries

[Roses_191]

Yes, I've told my mum about it and she called me an idiot. Thankyou for replying 😊👍