Hate year 12

[cantdothis]

I just want to rant because I don't have anybody that I can talk to this about.

Well, I guess there are a lot of things that have caused this but for I hate myself. I am behind on all my subjects because I spent the entire year focusing so much on my assessments. I am so stressed because now there is less than a week of the holidays and I have to cram all my subjects in. I really have nobody but myself to blame but now, I don't even feel like working. I get so demotivated somedays so I usually do nothing most of the day, and then I also don't go out with my friends because I feel guilty because I know I should be working but I'm not. I just like, there's nobody I can blame, so I hate myself for not doing anything. 

There's another thing that's been weighing on my mind a lot. I just want to start by saying, I know my friends all work extra hard, their marks show that so I am in no way trying to discredit their efforts or what they have done. Sometimes I feel like I work really hard for my subjects, and I feel like that is the hardest I've worked in my life. But then I get a bad mark, and no matter how hard I try, I still get a mark that is lower than my other friends. So it's really demotivating and I feel like no matter however hard I try, I'm going to get the same bad mark. I mean, there's not much I can do really but just keep trying, but it's just like why do I have to work so hard when it feels like nobody else is. 

I know I am a jealous person and I know that I compare myself to my friends a lot. I just hate year 12 because these marks and ranking thing just makes it so much worse. I know there are a lot of people who have worse stress when dealing with school, but I just really needed to get this out since I couldn't talk to anybody about this. 

[smallwolf]

hello and welcome.

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. It's tough when it feels like the weight of everything is on your shoulders. It's understandable to feel demotivated and guilty when the pressure is so high, especially with year 12 being such a challenging time.

It's easy to say compare yourself to others, especially when it seems like your hard work isn't paying off in the same way. It's important to remember that everyone's journey is different, and your efforts are valid and important, even if the results don't always reflect that immediately.

Many years ago when I was in year 12... Well, I did not get the marks I wanted and my journey took me to TAFE before Uni. Someone who I thought was smarter than me repeated year 12. And perhaps ... what do you want to do with your life after school? What do you want to do?

It's okay to reach out for support, whether it's from a friend, family member or someone professional. You might also be able to speak with yout school counsellor? Your feelings are valid and talking about them is a good step. Be kind to yourself; you're doing the best you can in a really tough situation.

[BlueLily]

Hi Guest_57433828,

When I was reading your post I felt like you were expressing my exact thoughts during my year 12 and even some university years. So I want to say you are not alone and you are not a jealous person.

You have addressed 2 problems. One is that running out of time for study after focusing on assignments. This has happened to me countless times. It took me sometime to figure out a method to overcome this. My strategy was, despite focusing on assignments each week, I make sure to review study materials each week and make some short notes or highlight important points for exam. I do this by making a weekly schedule for each subject prepared at the start of the year. Even if I get behind the schedule I try to catch up within a week or 2. That way by the time you reach the exam you've done most of revision. Not to mention that weekly revision helps assignments as well. 

The second issue that others scoring better, I think it's ok to compare as long as you use it positively for yourself and others. I've felt the same when I was doing hours of studies and making short notes, other students would score better without doing none of that. What I realised is not everybody has the same information retention levels. Some will remember by reading once. Others will remember after reading 10 times, people like you and me. But that's ok because if we work hard and use the right tactics we can score even better. You need to find what methods work for you such as reading out loud or writing repeatedly or drawing diagrams etc. 

Also don't get fooled by some students that don't like to talk about how hard they study. I have experienced this that even though it looks like they don't study, they actually work really hard after going home to get that grade.

So do take a rest day and enjoy with your friends, don't feel guilty. When you are happy and relaxed it will be easier to study and retain it.

Good luck with year 12!