Frenzying? Going crazy? OCD? Threatening myself?

MaeM
Community Member
Whenever I am anxious I seem to go into this mode where I just clean or sort things out. A few weeks ago I went through my wardrobe 3 times and throughout clothes I never wear and folded everything up all over again (Keeping in mind this what at 10pm). I will vacuum my carpet, take everything off shelves and put it back neat, clean my rabbits cage, wipe down cupboards and mop floors. I never noticed it until my mum pointed it out to me and started worrying about it. If I don't complete what I wanted to do I start freaking out aswell my mind is set on getting it done right then and there.
Another thing I do is go shopping or online shopping. I never buy anything online though. Im always checking online to see if anything is cheaper than the day before and if it is I don't even buy it. I go shopping and don't find anything that I like but I feel horrible if I don't go and check. I don't know whats going on with it. Never really been the kind of person to shop all the time. Im not very girly either so I don't know why I seem to feel obliged to just go to the shops. Sometimes I even ask my parents at 9:00pm to take me to the supermarket. I don't know what I am getting there but I just feel like going.
Am I going crazy? Is it frenzy? Kind of seems like OCD I suppose?
Another thing I do which I have been told by a counsellor seems a lot like OCD is threaten myself with the most random things for example, I'll tell myself in my head to look at the time or myself or something I love will die somehow. It can be the most stupid of things like straightening a picture frame, eating a bit of food, changing the channel, picking something up off the floor, patting my rabbit or dogs, asking my parents a question or saying something. Im always telling myself to do things like this and always threatening "or _____ will die"
I don't know what is happening!?
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AGrace
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Hi MaeM, 

Just a quick note to let you know the forums are completely anonymous, some of us disclose our names but this is not necessary. You can feel safe posting as much as is helpful for you. You're in very safe hands with Geoff, he's been a part of the discussions here for a number of years and will support you as much as possible. 

Take Care

AGrace

geoff
Champion Alumni
Champion Alumni

dear MaeM, please as Amber has said we don't know who you, what you look like, all we know is someone using a username, and please have no fear.

Having the urge to go to the same isle and also going into them more than once, and an obsession about not buying anything over a certain price all of these lead to having OCD.

Another possibility is that do you pick up an item more than once and then put it back in the same position as it was, and do you have a need to count to a certain number of times, or the same number like I do as I have to count to 4 or touch an item 4 times. Geoff. x

MaeM
Community Member
I don't count no.. I do pick things up and put them down in the same position though.

AGrace
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Hi Geoff, 

Im not overly familiar with OCD, I used to have to wash my hands 3 times for no reason but I've since overcome this. So I was curious as to what treatments may have helped you over the years? Is it something that can be cured? Or is it just about managing the symptoms? Are their specific treatments that are recommended,  ie CBT, ACT or exposure therapy? 

Thanks in advance for your insight. 

Amber