feeling really lonely and depressed

[felixi]

hi guys, im felix

i wont go into to much detail about my life but i havent had a very happy upbringing. i like to think mine is better then alot of other peoples though. im 15 years old and im suffering from bad depression and loneliness. im on prescribed medication for ADHD and have been diagnosed with Asperger's from a young age

over the past few years ive been seriously bullied (bashed, house broken into, harassment, death threats etc.) ive been to police and charged most of them but it never goes away. this has made me very anxious and depressed, ive thought of suicide many times but im stronger then that. ive never really had friends or a strong support group. im seeing a therapist but its not working the way i want it to. im crying as i right this because i feel so lonely and worthless. im just really sad and anxious. i cant explain properly.

ive smoked marijuana on and off for the past year, i gave it up becuase i felt like it was making my life worse. i was given a small amount of marijuana and smoked it yesterday. i feel very depressed after that. i know it has caused most of it.

i really like this girl and my friend is flirting with her and there getting close. its not my biggest problem right now but it has caused a jealous and and frustrated feeling. i need someone just to help me and help me understand that im not alone, i also need tips on keeping my wellbeing happy and good.

thankyou for reading

[Birdy77]

Dear felixi,

I am here to tell you that you are not alone, we are here with you and will listen to you and care about your wellbeing.

You've had a really rough time of it, I am so sorry to hear, it's just not fair.

So you smoked the day before yesterday, and it made you feel depressed, but you can take a positive from that and encourage yourself not to do it again, as it makes everything harder for you.

Does your friend know that you like this girl?

What sorts of things do you do, or can you think of, that bring you happiness or joy or even a smile or sense of peace? I like walking at the beach, being outdoors, in my garden, with my animals, making art and doing crafty stuff. ... if you can think of some things you could do and try to ensure you do a couple ofthem each day, that would be a small step towards keeping your wellbeing happy and good?

I hope today is a bit brighter for you felixi, and thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings here.

🌻birdy

[felixi]

hi birdy77

just an update

ive done some meditating, taken my self for walks and gone to the gym. its all helped me feel b etter and less anxious. i chucked away the marijuana and gone on a lower dose of medication

i also talked to my friend and her and it turns out she liked me and i was getting jealous for no reason. ive mad another appointment with my therapist and im going to work out ways i can help my self in the long run.

thank you for replying and letting me know im not alone. i feel like depression and anxiety gets the better of us and its a huge issue in Australia that im well prepared to try and fix.

thankyou

[Birdy77]

Dear felixi,

Your update sounded really positive, I was so happy to read it.

I am hoping by now that you have seen your therapist again and are working out some strategies to keep well. Meditation, walking and the gym are all really healthy things to do for body and mind.

That was so mature and sensible to talk to your friend about the girl you like, and see: what a lovely outcome! So worth it.

How have you been feeling the last couple of weeks? A bit better I hope.

🌻birdy

[felixi]

hi birdy,

yes ive been feeling really good. went to see my therapest and helped to let some things out.

ive had no bad depression or lonely feelings lately and i feel awesome. i want to thank you for being there and talking to me. it made me understand at-least someone is there for me

felix

[Birdy77]

That is such wonderful news felix, I am really happy to hear you are in a good space.

You are very welcome felix, I am happy to talk with you any time.

I hope you will remember this space is yours to safely talk whenever you need it.

I hope you have a happy Monday 😊

🌻birdy