Hello everyone, so... where to start?
im 20, and i have no friends, never had a girlfriend, and no job, i feel lost, inexperienced, and undoubtedly depressed.
my lifes been lonely and messy since i dropped out of highschool from bullying and general depression/anxiety about 6 years ago, that when my isolation pretty much began, and iv not been able to open up to the world since. Iv had on and off friends here an there, but no one iv been particularly close with, nor persistent up till i moved out of my parents, becoming great friends with my housemates and friends of theirs; but the stresses of living in the city without a job, license, and being away from the family and town i grew up in became too much, so i moved back with my family in the country 4 months after leaving them... i feel just as lost, even resentful that i didnt try holding out in the city to try and find that 'life', doesnt help im not on the best terms with my friends there anymore either 😕
as for jobs; iv had one for about 2 years, a supermarket Deli job... it was alright besides that i couldnt get along with my bosses nor co-workers, and with the people i DID get along with, they usually left because they hated the place (like me), i was also kinda shit at my job, but i had nothing else to go to... but after having a major breakdown one day, and having one of my bosses completely humiliate me (unknowingly) i couldnt go back... and didnt... and so after 10 months of unemployment and ofc having no friends, i went on a wim and moved in with a mate in the city, which as previously stated only had medium success (i learnt about the part of life i was missing out on; having friends, living alone, ect.)
iv since been looking for work in this crap town i grew up in, but no ones hiring considering the town is literally shrinking.
so to put it short:
im 20, and feel like there are so many things in my life that i dont have together; no friends, no job, no girlfriend... it just seems like everyone has everything in their life sorted and they arent even 18 yet.
im young, yet too old to not have anything everyone else already has.
