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Feeling alone

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I feel like I am so isolated but not by just me and my messed up mind but by everyone else around me. I feel as though, I need to make friends and stop mentally stopping myself because im scared but I cant. Mentally, I can now but my parents dont thi... View more

I feel like I am so isolated but not by just me and my messed up mind but by everyone else around me. I feel as though, I need to make friends and stop mentally stopping myself because im scared but I cant. Mentally, I can now but my parents dont think im up for the ''challenge''. I just dont know what to do except just crawl up in my ball and again, isolate myself. My dad is always complaining about how me and my little sister (who is one year younger then me, im 14) are massive problems and then my mum says ''Dont drag her sister into this'' It just puts me down and I honestly dont know what to do anymore. My parents get angry at me if Im on websites like these, looking for help and they get even more mad when the police turn up at my house. When my mum was taking me up to the mental hospital, she just sat in the car and was so so so so angry at me and wouldnt speak to me. Everytime I have a breakdown and need to go to hospital, I feel so embarrassed and scared that everyone will have a go at me. I really need some advice

The stress is killing me

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Hi Guys, I've posted a few times on here. Recently I've come into my final year of study at university. It's a 4 year course, but it's taken me 6 years to get here. And I'm out of fuel. There's been some added pressures this year, which I expected, a... View more

Hi Guys, I've posted a few times on here. Recently I've come into my final year of study at university. It's a 4 year course, but it's taken me 6 years to get here. And I'm out of fuel. There's been some added pressures this year, which I expected, and I didn't get a break all summer due to full time work that was in my engineering field (it's a requirement for my course to complete 12 weeks of full time work in an engineering workplace to be able to graduate). So I went straight from uni to work and now back to uni again. I knew it would be hard on my mentality but I thought I'd be able to deal with it. Apparently I didn't leave enough energy for everything else in life and I was wrong. I've had a major source of income cut (Centrelink) because of the work I did over the 12 weeks. Yeah I managed to save some money over the summer, but only enough to last me about 4 weeks of unemployment and 0 Centrelink payments. 2 of those weeks have already gone, and I've so far only gotten one job and they're only giving me 5-10hrs per week!!! I have 20 contact hours at uni, not including the time between classes when I can't go home (1-3hr gaps), and obviously have my thesis to complete as well. So I need to get another job. I guess I'm spent. I'm out of energy, I don't want to fight for what I'm doing anymore, and I wish I could quit. I know why I feel like this, but I can't change it. I'm skipping classes, falling way behind in my units and on my thesis. I'm watching more and more work pile up in front of me, and it's making me run further and further away from it all. I'm ready to drop to the ground and scream. I desperately want someone to come and save me from my own mess, but I know that's not how the world works. I'm sick of people saying "I believe you can do it", "You'll be ok", "It's your last year!". I don't WANT to do it. Any of it. And I don't know what to do or how to stop the very quick downward spiral that's happening right now. I know it's wrong but I've suffered my depression and anxiety long enough to know myself - If I quit or defer, that's classified as a failure. And I can't deal with that either - That would push me too far. I have so many people who believe in me, except me. I see a psych but can't get in to see them anytime soon. There's reasoning to this but I'm out of characters for this thread, so I guess I'm just looking for some help! In a very low place and getting lower

feeling lost at 20 (young, yet too old)

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Hello everyone, so... where to start? im 20, and i have no friends, never had a girlfriend, and no job, i feel lost, inexperienced, and undoubtedly depressed. my lifes been lonely and messy since i dropped out of highschool from bullying and general ... View more

Hello everyone, so... where to start? im 20, and i have no friends, never had a girlfriend, and no job, i feel lost, inexperienced, and undoubtedly depressed. my lifes been lonely and messy since i dropped out of highschool from bullying and general depression/anxiety about 6 years ago, that when my isolation pretty much began, and iv not been able to open up to the world since. Iv had on and off friends here an there, but no one iv been particularly close with, nor persistent up till i moved out of my parents, becoming great friends with my housemates and friends of theirs; but the stresses of living in the city without a job, license, and being away from the family and town i grew up in became too much, so i moved back with my family in the country 4 months after leaving them... i feel just as lost, even resentful that i didnt try holding out in the city to try and find that 'life', doesnt help im not on the best terms with my friends there anymore either as for jobs; iv had one for about 2 years, a supermarket Deli job... it was alright besides that i couldnt get along with my bosses nor co-workers, and with the people i DID get along with, they usually left because they hated the place (like me), i was also kinda shit at my job, but i had nothing else to go to... but after having a major breakdown one day, and having one of my bosses completely humiliate me (unknowingly) i couldnt go back... and didnt... and so after 10 months of unemployment and ofc having no friends, i went on a wim and moved in with a mate in the city, which as previously stated only had medium success (i learnt about the part of life i was missing out on; having friends, living alone, ect.) iv since been looking for work in this crap town i grew up in, but no ones hiring considering the town is literally shrinking. so to put it short: im 20, and feel like there are so many things in my life that i dont have together; no friends, no job, no girlfriend... it just seems like everyone has everything in their life sorted and they arent even 18 yet. im young, yet too old to not have anything everyone else already has.

Where do I go from here?

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Last week I ended up in hospital. I thought I was having a heart attack! Turned out to be an anxiety attack. I've never had one before. Life has been so stressful lately and I've tried talking to my husband about it but he just talks over me so I gav... View more

Last week I ended up in hospital. I thought I was having a heart attack! Turned out to be an anxiety attack. I've never had one before. Life has been so stressful lately and I've tried talking to my husband about it but he just talks over me so I gave up. I was 150kms from home (we live in the middle of nowhere and this is our closest large town). My husband was at work (100kms away). My friend was picking my kids up from school. I called my husband at work to let him know what was happening and got a response of...I won't be home until I finish work. He had no car. My friends husband drove 150kms to drop my friend at the hospital so I wasnt alone. Than he drove 100kms back to where my husband was at work to pick him up and bring him to the hospital. He called the whole time but hubby didn't answer until 6.30pm. I called my husband at 3pm. He had his phone the whole time. Friends hubby drove another 100kms back to the hospital & than home, another 150kms. I can't get passed the fact that my husband didn't even try to get to me. Not at all. My friends husband drove for nearly 6 hrs to make sure I was ok and my husband couldn't even ask to borrow one of his friends cars. I have been struggling with this marriage for the last 5yrs (we've been together 15) I always forgive when he's inconsiderate even though it hurts me deeply everytime. I just want to be happy. He apologises but things always go back to the same thing. How do I forgive this time?

I feel lost

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I'm not sure how to go about things. Sometimes I get down but I feel my boyfriend convinces me that there is truely something wrong with me. He pokes and prods until it tips me over the edge. I react and feel I am going crazy. I can't tell if its me ... View more

I'm not sure how to go about things. Sometimes I get down but I feel my boyfriend convinces me that there is truely something wrong with me. He pokes and prods until it tips me over the edge. I react and feel I am going crazy. I can't tell if its me or him.

what's wrong with me

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Hello, My name is Rika and sorry if this is weird it's my first time doing this. Recently my life has been down deeply in the dumps, i have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and i'm also finding my own sexuality as well due to past events, e... View more

Hello, My name is Rika and sorry if this is weird it's my first time doing this. Recently my life has been down deeply in the dumps, i have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and i'm also finding my own sexuality as well due to past events, everyday is emotionless for me and it doesn't help that my mom won't ever let me leave the house to do anything, i'm currently 15 and i've never had a sleepover and i have never been to a friends house or birthday party or even had a proper one of my own haha weird right? anyway, everyday at school is hard cause i feel so heavy and tired no matter how much i sleep, also the only time i ever feel really happy is when im online talking to friends i've made in other countries and when they're sad i feel really happy cause it gives me a chance to cheer them up and when i succeed i feel so good about myself and them. and other times i don't feel anything at all, i don't feel happy and i don't feel sad for them i feel nothing, it's like i don't care about them. One time my friend ((im gonna call him red cause he likes that color)) red once went missing and the other friend Byn ((im not going to use real names for them)) got really upset since he knows red in real life and everyone in this facebook chat of ours was upset except for me, i didn't feel anything for them or anyone, it was like it wasn't even happening, eventually he turned up, terribly beaten, broken phone, friend committed suicide . i was glad he was safe but ever since then i've hated myself foe feeling nothing for him. Why am i like this? why must i constantly be an emotionless girl feeling nothing for her beloved friends. They deserve something don't they? i don't wanna be like this anymore thank you for reading and if you do choose to leave a comment, i will happily read it for you. have a nice day everyone

Is it just me?

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Hi, I am an emotional person, but one thing that is stopping me is me being unable to cry it out. As I have depression and anxiety, I have the feelings to cry, but I cannot produce the tears. Is there something wrong with me? If so, what is it and wh... View more

Hi, I am an emotional person, but one thing that is stopping me is me being unable to cry it out. As I have depression and anxiety, I have the feelings to cry, but I cannot produce the tears. Is there something wrong with me? If so, what is it and what can be done? I have been clean for the past 12 months, which is a huge achievement for me. But the urge to cry is still there, but won't come out. Hope someone can help

How do you change when you've "played it safe" your whole life?

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Okay, so I have posted on here a few times, I am finally making process and feeling a little better. Partly because I am being direct, taking charge and doing what's best for me, including seeing a psychologist. Personality wise, I've realised identi... View more

Okay, so I have posted on here a few times, I am finally making process and feeling a little better. Partly because I am being direct, taking charge and doing what's best for me, including seeing a psychologist. Personality wise, I've realised identify with lawful good as part of the alignment personality system. . Put simply, I do things because it's the "right" thing typically, not because I want to and a lot of it is based on how I feel others see me or the ridiculous standards I have set for myself. Not to be misunderstood, I don't want to be self-destructed, but I haven't ever done anything remotely adventurous or different. Or even slightly rebellious. I find myself longing to bring out more of the free-spirit I know exists in me; but I really don't know. It's also hard because I am stuck between very religious friends and others that are very much secular. I tend to question things a lot partly due to that diversity. I am not sure how to openly become the person I feel I am and take healthy risks? I am not even sure what they look like. I am a very creative person, but I lack confidence in those capabilities, if that gives any kind of indication. Thanks!

I need advice with my current relationship please

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Hi guys, I'm just an average person thats currently studying, for the past 2 years I met someone (I think) I truly love. She is great but, we broke up in out first year, but then we "kinda" got back together but not as boyfriend and girlfriend, so ju... View more

Hi guys, I'm just an average person thats currently studying, for the past 2 years I met someone (I think) I truly love. She is great but, we broke up in out first year, but then we "kinda" got back together but not as boyfriend and girlfriend, so just "friends" but we didnt do what friends do like have sex, call each other every night, what a good relationship does. She keeps asking me what are we, I ask her what do you want us to be, she says she doesn't know. For me I can be patient. She continues by saying this is wrong but I want to be with you. I'm guessing that she doesn't to be together but she doesn't to hurt my feelings so i reassure her, but then she continues on by saying no one is like me and she wont someone like me. This made me happy and sad, reason why is that she keeps saying this is wrong and what are we. Just recently she met a guy at her work place and she finds him cute. I don't mind that since she calls everyone cute but then something odd happens. She stops calling me, finding out that it was the guy from her workplace, I ask her when she is going to finish calling him? she said I don't know. She didn't call me back in a while, so I got jealous and yes I did Stuff up by going into her account and snooping of who is she texting and found out that shes been texting that guy. But nothing comes out of the ordinary but when i look at her other friends text shes been saying how cute he is and ect I get really jealous but soon enough I saw it as a joke BUT i felt guilty for logging into her account so i confessed of what I've done and explain why i did it. She got mad and cuts me off from her life this happen twice now through the two years. The first time she cuts me off was for no reason so the persistent me is trying to contact her and ask her why and also if we could talk eventually we got back together but now she cuts me off again but with a reason (me logging into her account without asking) and yes i feel really guilty about this. I feel she lost trust in me i want to say sorry so many times but she keeps ignoring me. I want to talk to her but she doesn't care this is the second time that she cuts me off. Should I stay persistent or should I move on?

Severe anxiety.. need suggestions!

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Hi all, For a little over two years now I suffered from GAD, panic disorder, social anxiety, slight agoraphobia, and more recently depression. Meanwhile I have been suffering with glue ear and sinusitis, which both trigger my anxiety and amplify symp... View more

Hi all, For a little over two years now I suffered from GAD, panic disorder, social anxiety, slight agoraphobia, and more recently depression. Meanwhile I have been suffering with glue ear and sinusitis, which both trigger my anxiety and amplify symptoms. Because of this, my life has become very constricted. I cannot handle being home alone because two years ago I suffered 3 panic attacks in 3 days and each time I was home alone so this has caused me to avoid being home on my own for two years, which frustrates me because I used to love being home on my own but I cannot bring myself to attempt to stay at home on my own out of fear of a re-occurrence. I also cannot handle being out in public because of my social anxiety which has worsened in the past two years and because of my glue ear, causes me to constantly feel agitated, uncomfortable, and easily overwhelmed. And now, my anxiety is also affecting my university studies. I've just began seeing a psychologist for CBT, and I have recently been given prescription for benzodiazepenes to take when needed. The reason that I'm writing this thread is because last month while on a two hour car trip I suffered a severe and traumatising panic attack that suffered for around an hour. I now have a wedding to attend next week, which is 10 hours away and will be a 3 day trip. I am very overwhelmed at the thought of the car trip as I cannot handle being in a car, even for short trips to the local shops. I feel claustrophobic/trapped and can't feel car/motion sick. I am also worried about being away from home for 3 days as I suffer from depersonalisation and derealisation, and feel very overwhelmed when experiencing it when in unfamiliar surroundings and increases my anxiety. My other concern is that the wedding will be quite large, and the venue is not very big, and as stated above, I cannot handle public areas, and being around more than a few people, otherwise I become overwhelmed, off balanced, and feel like I'm going crazy/loosing control. I was hoping there would be someone who has a similar issue, or really just anyone, who can offer me some suggestions to help me handle the long car trip and the wedding. Thank you for reading, even if I did ramble on or at times might not make sense x

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The stress is killing me

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feeling lost at 20 (young, yet too old)

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Where do I go from here?

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I feel lost

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what's wrong with me

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Is it just me?

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