Feeling alone

[LaylaBear15]

I feel like I am so isolated but not by just me and my messed up mind but by everyone else around me. I feel as though, I need to make friends and stop mentally stopping myself because im scared but I cant. Mentally, I can now but my parents dont think im up for the ''challenge''. I just dont know what to do except just crawl up in my ball and again, isolate myself. My dad is always complaining about how me and my little sister (who is one year younger then me, im 14) are massive problems and then my mum says

''Dont drag her sister into this''

It just puts me down and I honestly dont know what to do anymore. My parents get angry at me if Im on websites like these, looking for help and they get even more mad when the police turn up at my house. When my mum was taking me up to the mental hospital, she just sat in the car and was so so so so angry at me and wouldnt speak to me. Everytime I have a breakdown and need to go to hospital, I feel so embarrassed and scared that everyone will have a go at me. I really need some advice ❤️

[BballJ]

Hi LaylaBear15,

Sorry to read what you are going through. Have you thought about possibly calling the Beyond Blue helpline listed below on 1300 22 4636 to discuss these things and what you are going through? They are a great team of people who can listen and offer advice, also do you have a friend or another family member you can possibly talk to as well?

Hopefully others will comment with better advice but just wanted to make sure you were aware of the Help Line you can call for advice.

My best for you,

Jay

[blondguy]

Hi LaylaBear15

BballJ (Jay) is spot on above with his advice if you need a caring voice on voice 1300 22 4636 is 24/7

If I was 14 I would see my school counselor as soon as I could. You have everything to gain and nothing to lose by doing so 🙂

I am sorry to read that you are being criticized for being on any help site, even this one.

I think you are an amazing person for having the strength to reach out and share what you are going through

Jay was right too about having a friend or anyone that you get along with that you can talk to LaylaBear

We have many young people on the forums that can be here for you, no worries at all 🙂 Its not immediate chat unfortunately but I hope you can stick around.

you are not alone here LaylaBear

My best for you too!

Paul

[blondguy]

My apologies LaylaBear for the double post

Just letting you know that I used to have chronic anxiety and now depression which is healing as I am lucky to have a legend of a GP.

Just so you know who you are talking to

Best

Paul

[geoff]

hi Laylabear, you have made two friends already with Jay and Paul and now myself, and what worries me is that your parents are not capable of looking after you when you do have a breakdown but instead take you to hospital, whereas this could have been avoided.
When you visit sites like this one your parents don't realise that you are trying to get some answers, because at the moment you aren't getting any from them, which is really sad because every child would think that their parents would be their best option to help them, but when they don't you only struggle by yourself and I can see the same thing happening with your sister.
If you need to use the computer then go to the library, rather than being picked on at home, but there is a lot that all of us can learn by visiting this site, which I hope you can still do. Geoff.

[LaylaBear15]

Hi Geoff,

I am not able to go out of the house without parental supervision but thank you for the support anyway. 🙂

-layla

[LaylaBear15]

Hi Jay.

I do not have a phone so I am not able to call anyone and we do not have a home phone has once upon a time, every person in the house had a phone but now I am the only one who doesn't. I do not have any friends as the school that I go to is a mental health support school and everyone there is either a drug addict or is super depressed and suicidal and when it comes to my parents, that is a big no no to our family.

Thanks for the support anyway,

Layla

[LaylaBear15]

Hi Paul.

I go to a mental health support school and all of the time, our counselors are full up completely, even booked up for weeks.

Unfortunately, I cannot have friends at this school because the people that go there are either

• Suicidal
• Heavy addicts to drugs and alcohol
• Depressed
• Mentally mad (Not meaning to insult)

That is a massive no no to our family because everyone in our family is perfect and I am the only depressed one. I have pushed away all of my family members, either by physical or verbal abuse so I really have no one. I feel like I am getting worse day by day​. I go to CHYMES but I really hate it there, like really really hate it. Im kind of giving up. I dunno.

Kind Regards,

Layla

[BballJ]

Hi LaylaBear15,

Are you able to as Paul (blondguy) said above, speak to your school counsellor at all?

My best,

Jay