Feeling hopeless

[Tadpole]

Hi everyone, I've just singed up to this forum as I'm sick of living a lie. I come home from work every afternoon and sleep for hours then I wake up and drink lots of alcohol untill I'm drunk. I have no interests anymore. I have unrealistic thoughts that something's bad is going to happen to me. It's affecting my relationship with my husband and mum. I know I'm not right but just don't know what to do'!! Can anybody help me? I feel so stupid for even writing this 😞 

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[geoff]

dear Tadpole, firstly you are not stupid for writing your comment, so please forget about saying that, sorry I said that before I wanted to welcome you to the BB site.

By saying 'you're sick of living a lie', I think that this means that you put on a fake face and pretend that you and perhaps at home s well are OK, but when you get home sleep and then drink alcohol.

Life at the moment must be awful for you, and I'm not sure whether your husband and mother actually know what is troubling you, nor understand why you want to drink until you are drunk.

I see that Beyond Blue Moderators have been in touch with you and giving you assistance which is great.

These unrealistic thoughts you are having are a worry, so I want you to get back to us, plus I know that the BB team would have suggested for you to see a doctor and head you in the right direction, but please can you get back to us. L Geoff. x