feeling alone and insecure that causes me to pick my face

[dnova1]

• I have a few friends and a bf but I still feel alone. I feel like I try so hard for other people to like me and for me to fit in. I have many friends but I don't have close friends.  Whenever I feel alone I start picking my face because it makes me zone out, but after I see what I've done to my face, I don't want to leave the house. I hate being by myself because when I am I feel unloved and alone. I've become so insecure within my self. Its so hard pretending to be someone I'm not, I try and act happy when really I'm so broken from the inside. How do I overcome this? I can't talk to anyone about it because I'm afraid of being judged.  I'm so obsessed with my physical appearance and wanting to be perfect. I pick on my weight when in reality I'm not fat and weigh 54kg. I pick on my looks but I constantly get complimented on the way I look. Why cant I love myself the way my boyfriend loves me? I feel like Ill lose him one day if this takes over me. I've been crying a lot for no reason I don't know if I'm depressed? I do suffer from anxiety occasionally. 

[Pixie15]

Hi dnova1,

Welcome to the forums. Because you chose to post in young people I am assuming you were hoping for a response from other young people and I can understand that. However I thought I would offer my two bits worth anyway.

There seems to be a lot of pressure on young people to maintain a certain appearance these days. You are probably aware that a lot of the ideal images that are being promoted for young women and men (they used to have it easier) these days are just unrealistic and only achieved through an extensive use of photo enhancements. Unfortunately knowing that does not stop them undermining confidence.

It would be good to find someone to talk about it. Worrying about feeling judged is another aspect of losing confidence. With picking your face you have just developed a negative way of coping and you can learn better ways. You have made a start in talking about it here.

I am not sure how old you are so do not know what to say about seeking help. Do you have a family member or friend who you think might be supportive and understanding? 

Grateful.

[Nordi]

Hi, I am 46 and I suffer the same, my face is so badly scarred from this. Please try and get some help. My face is so bad now that I hate going out in public. I see people looking and no I'm not paranoid about it.. Some days it looks great, but I can't help myself, I have to pick and squeeze it..

Iam trying my best to stop, but I think it's become a very bad and self distructing habit.. My confidence is at a low. U must get help for yourself as soon as possible.. Please don't end up like me.. Xoxo

goodluck ok..