Dear MdxT
Hello and welcome to the forum. Thank you for your story. This forum is for anyone who is experiencing problems and wants to talk about them so you are fine to post in here.
A couple of questions if I may. Why do you believe you do not work hard enough to reach your goals? Are the goals and aspirations you have set really what you want to achieve? Why do you see yourself as a failure? I take it you are talking about your employment ambitions.
Are you working hard enough to retain your job? Well I guess the answer is yes otherwise you would not be employed. What other job or position do you want? I wonder if you have a clear vision of what you want to achieve. It's hard enough to make progress through your work but if you do not have a clear idea of what you want it's becomes more difficult to reach that goal.
It occurs to me that you may be talking about other life goals and you said, a whole world of people better than me at the only thing that gives my life meaning. What is it that gives your life meaning? Is it a specific job or role or a more general desire to be employed and earn sufficient wages to meet some other goal outside your work.
I am going to stay with the employment angle. Perhaps you can tell me if this is incorrect. Does your employer have any kind of mentoring process? More senior employees who can coach others to attain a more senior role for themselves? If not, have you thought to ask someone to be your mentor? It will take a bit of courage to ask I suspect because none of us like knock backs. Can you think of someone who you could trust and whose job, or similar job, you would like to have one day?
I have noticed that when someone calls themselves a failure and cannot change their thinking, then they only become what they believe. Why are you so hard on yourself? Do you know what you are capable of achieving? You do need to believe in yourself.
OK I may be entirely wrong about your goals. Can you reply and give us some more information.
Mary
