Alright so I am literally overwhelmed as hell, I'm thinking of the worst to come to me, I'm justifying I'm going to hell, I'm trying to think of reasons why It's not what I think, I'm freaking out, please somebody help me, I screwed around a lot when I was younger (Im 19 now) and its coming back to me what that means. Im not 100% sure, but I'm certain. I'm feeling the worst in my stomach, I cant do anything to distract myself and I cant even find myself deserving to find happiness or like my old self again. I'm seriously panicking, and I know this is risky to talk about with the circumstances of the topic but If I just can't talk about it to somebody I'm gonna be risking worse of myself. I'm currently crying, shaking, panicking, I feel isolated to talk about it because idk if It'll get me in trouble. I feel nauseous, I'm confused, I'm scared, I'm so so shameful, I need help forgiving myself or recovering from this, please.
