Depression and unaffordable help

[LaLisa]

Hi my name is lisa,

As of late my mental health has been decIining. I often find i have very big highs and very bad lows.

I am often irratated by things i dont expect to be upset by.

Like once, i had done the enneagram test. I received the 6 w 5 result. For some reason it struck me in a way that left me in a breakdown for hours. It was because it was true. I didnt know what to do or who to rely on.

Sometimes the highs are equal too that of my breakdown. I'll be so happy and excited. But it only lasts minutes. Then im back too being indifferent or unhappy.

I also have severe trouble doing any form of work and practice i used to love. Like drawing, playing violin and other more technical things. Im always too tired to do it and when i try i breakdown again.

I feel like i should get help but i cant afford it. I have tried before but i was ignored. I opened up too who i thought was a councilor. She ended up being some unqualified woman put there because they could not afford a real one. She said i was fine. I was just being silly.

What do i do?

[Hope_for_the_best]

Hi Lisa,

The enneagram test is useful to identify your personality that may contribute to your thinking patterns. However, it is not a test indicated for depression. Please do the K10 test available on the Beyond Blue site. It is good that you open up. Have you consulted your GP? If cost is an issue for you, perhaps look for a bulk billing one. A GP can set up a mental health care plan for you, which entitles you to have free sessions with a psychologist.

Get well soon.

[LaLisa]

I know that

Thays the reason it shocked me is because it was true i depend and lean on people a lot. And i felt incredibly horrible about it. I felt like i burdened others. Soeey i didn't explain properly.

[Hope_for_the_best]

Asking for help does not mean you depend and lean on people. You are not giving a burden to others by seeking help. In fact, you create burdens on others if you leave yourself like that, because you get those who care about you worried. I know you might be discouraged by the negative experience when you opened up to a counsellor. How about you try another one? Doctors are meant to treat illnesses and it is not a burden to them if you go and tell them you don't feel well.

You have already done the very first step of seeking help by posting here. I hope you could reach out to your GP and get the help that you need.