Hello,
currently my legal name is “G”, but I go by Sierra.
I’ve had
many problems in the past because I have been uncomfortable with my legal name.
I’ve been
picked on a bit in the past, and I’ve had many people tell me it’s not okay to
go by a new name. My school (Middle/High) told me it was also unacceptable, and
the school has no way of changing it.
I’ve been
experiencing depression, and my anxiety and anger has gotten worse over it. If you’re
wondering as well, I do have people to talk to, like a school counselor, and my
best friend. But sometimes it’s hard because I have a pretty unique problem,
and I have searched forum after forum, and the closest I get is “How to respect
a transgender person’s new pronouns”. I’m not transgender, and I’m not choosing
a different gender, so I’m at a bit of a loss.
I’ve also
been told I may have been experiencing childhood emotional neglect as well,
although I’m not entirely sure that’s the case, as I don’t have low self-esteem
and I don’t blame myself for their behavior, although they were never really
there for me growing up, and I have also had depressive episodes about that. I’m
willing to go into more depth into that if you want.
Back to my
legal name issues. I have broken down at school many times, and I’m starting to
not be able to cry anymore. The last time I smiled was Sunday night, with my
best friend while watching my favorite movie. I’ve been angrier, and my friends
have told me I’m starting to look hollow and empty. It’s starting to affect my
general life, and I have no idea what to do (Minor here) because my parents
told me it’s stupid, I’ll grow out of it and no one will ever accept it (My
small group of friends do).
So… yeah. That’s
my situation.
Sierra.
